I screwed up my life

So guys here’s my story, I’ve been living an average life. I was pretty confident, had some people who liked me. Girls thought I was quite good looking, more or less I new what I wanted in life I wanted to play hard now n later settle down with the love of my life. So basically I had things planned, i lived my life a day at a time worked during the days, went to gym in the evenings, Clubbed on Fridays n Saturday nights. Everything was good I did this for the past year. I had two best friends which I went to gym, clubs whatever it was we would do together. Now one of my guy friends was abit jealous of me. Ok my other friend n i used to sometimes go clubbing together just the two of us n meet chicks. I guess we preferred going out together n leaving him behind because there were times that we would meet hot chicks when he was not around you get the picture? I’m not a bad person or anything but my other guy friend would prefer to go out with me only. Anyways all was good until the shit hit the fan. 1 night the three of us we chilling, we got a pill each n some weed so we decided to do our thing. Half an hour into it we were talking. I’m not a good speaker I have a phobia for speaking. So I told them a story which sounded really gay! I had a freaking nervous breakdown afterwards! Dam I feel like an idiot. They laughed at me even lost their respect for me. I told them not to tell anybody what happened because the reason for my reactions was the drugs making me do that. So I thought it was all good but then I found out that my friend who is jealous of me is telling all my other friends. Now everyone thinks I’m fucking gay!! I can’t handle this anymore it’s been two months. I’m depressed, i feel like I let my family down. My family has a reputation in my area they are all well known. Fuck i want to die. Can you imagine being called gay when you totally straight? I’m soo embarrassed I don’t want to live like this. I want to die I try n avoid these two friends now. I join other friends, drink until I forget what happened but then I wake up in the morning n I’m back to my depressed self.. I just don’t wanna be called a fag. I’m loosing weight because I haven’t been eating or consistent at gym.. Please advise me I need help