- She talked to me for the first time in a month today. Just to tell me she has no feelings for me. After five years. We were raising a family together. Thats what I get, I was an asshole. I cant be mad at her. But damn the truth hurts. Wasn’t this supposed to get easier? I just want to give up so bad. Fuck me.
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I can sort of relate. I fell in love with this guy a couple years ago, but then he breaks up with me since he’s too busy with college. I was left a complete disaster after that, I was hurting over him for a full year. But every time I finally got over him, he would randomly message me just to see how I was doing. Then I would answer him, happy and hoping maybe he was ready for a relationship, but then he’d block off contact with me right afterwards and not reply. He did this several times, which really prolonged the process of getting over him. Just cruel……
I asked for it. I contacted her because I need to drop off her things. The house looks like she never left and its killing me. I thought I just messed up too bad (which I did) but I had no idea she didnt love me anymore. I wasn’t ready for that. I never was the emotional type but my wife and family were my life. You give up so much to be what they need, I became “the provider”. Its my identity now. I dont know who or what to be now. I miss them so much that, crazy as it sounds, suicide actually looks good. Ive been fighting it off but I held out some small hope to carry me. Now that I dont have that… I just dont know.
notsureifreadytogo – thanks for your response to my thread. Hang in there. If you were truly the asshole that you feel like you are now, you wouldn’t be feeling any remorse for whatever it is you may have done. That alone means there is hope for you.