I’m 21 and I’m already tired of this life. I don’t want to die..just want to disappear. I’m ready to give up everything I have, just to be in a better place. I started self harming last year. All these years, I was trying to be strong and pretending that I was normal after every shit that I’ve been through. Lying is more of a habit because nobody really wants to listen to your shit. Family still thinks that I’m fine and I’m scared to ask for help.
Day by day, I’m losing my sanity, cuts are getting more deeper and memories are fading.
Sometimes I feel like slicing my veins open in front of my family to show them t
hat I’m suffering. And sometimes I feel, I can pretend that I’m fine for a little more time.
Waking up in the morning seems pointless when you have nothing to look forward to.
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I understand! I am 24 but have felt the same way since I was 19. Can you tell me a little bit more about yourself? What you do? where you live? hobbies ? your expectations in life?Just to know if there is something I can help you with.
Thanks
No one really knows what waits after death, so we can’t really know for sure it’s a better place.
Maybe you should try to stop pretending, and see if there’s someone you can trust and talk to.
It takes a lot of effort and mental energy to keep this up.
I know it’s hard and sometimes they don’t really understand, but it’s worth a try.
If your family is not the supportive type, maybe try to talk to a friend.