Break me down. Please. Disect me. Cut me open. Just tell me what’s wrong with me. I’ll give you all of the tools if you can just look inside. I’m down on my knees begging you to tell me what’s wrong with my mind. Why am I like this? Why do I want these horrible things? I don’t want to be your burden. But I wouldn’t mind being your little science project. I don’t want the drugs. I don’t want the alcohol. I just want to know why I see things the way I do. Please just make these thoughts stop. I don’t want to be this. I don’t want to have these urges. I don’t want to feel like hurting everyone around me. They’ve done nothing wrong. I’m fucked. I really am. So if the opperation ends badly, that’s okay. Just scatter my ashes across the sea..
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Damn, you sound like you’re in a fucked up place. In a situational sense as well as mentally. You make me wish I could help you, I’m sorry. If you can talk to anyone do it.
I have been. I’m really trying to fix this.
I’ve been trippin out all night withdrawaling from sum bad shit. Been losing my mind, can’t sleep, and I gotta go to work for 8 hrs tomorro. Been awake for like 7 days sober the whole time. I don’t know how I’m gonna do this shit, I’m homeless if I can’t support myself though. Your situation is probably way worse and way different. I’ m just sayin, I feel crazy as fuck right now, but I know I’m gonna make it to tomorro.
I’m happy to hear that you’re hanging on. Keeping life going for the time being. I just hate that doing so is such a struggle.
I get what you’re feeling, I’m sorry you have to experience this. I don’t have any grand answer for why anything is the way it is, but I can’t stand seeing someone else suffer, especially if they are suffering like me. I’m here to yell at or to cry to, whatever you need. No matter how down or hopeless you feel at any given moment, just remember that there’s a lower on the internet that would take a bullet if it would lessen your pain for just a second.
As much as I hate phrases like “stay strong,” or “things will get better,” stay strong, things may not get better but just remember that you aren’t alone.
*there’s a loser on the internet
not a lower, whatever the hell that is
Thank you. Just hearing that I’m not alone helps tremendously. I know things will get better. At least, I hope they will. I’m just trying to keep myself going until they do. Sometimes collapsing seems easier.
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I don’t really have any words. I am sorry for what is happening… I think you are really good at expressing yourself
if i helps i too am in a fucked situation i feel like dieing every moment ive tried suicide but didnt manage ryt nw m dehydrating and starving myself i hate my life you are not alone
They really hit me down in my core. Thank you for saying what I don’t have the courage to say.
Wow. You just expressed exactly how I’ve been feeling, and I’m so sorry you’re in this boat. The other day I read about one of the oldest trees in the world, centuries old, and some glory happy scientist killed the tree in order to learn how old it was.
And I was thinking, it wouldn’t be so bad. If someone drilled a plug into my core and ripped out a chunk just to see what made me tick, and if I died from it… Maybe that’s what I want.
And then I saw this post and read your words, and I know that’s what I want.
What the hell IS wrong with us?