Her Last Words from Courtney Parker

Just an average girl,

She always wore a smile

She was cheerful and happy for a short while.

 

Now she’s older, things are getting colder

Life’s not what she thought,

she wished someone had told her.

 

She told you she was down

And you let it slip by

So from then on she kept it on the inside

 

She told herself she was alright

But she was telling white lies

Can’t you tell, look at her dull eyes

 

Tried to stop herself from crying almost every night

But she knew there was no chance of feeling alright

 

Summer came by, all she wore was long sleeves

‘Cause those cuts on her wrist were bleeding through you see

 

She knew she was depressed, didn’t want to admit it

Didn’t think she fit in, everyone seemed to miss it

 

She carried on like a soldier with a battle wound,

Bleeding out from every cut her body consumed

 

She had no friends at school, all alone she sat

And if someone were to notice she would blame the cat

 

But those cuts on her wrist they were no mistake,

But no one cared enough to save her from this self hate

 

Things were going down never really up,

And here she is now stuck in this stupid rut

 

She knew exactly what she had to do next,

Just stand on the chair and tie the rope around her neck

 

She wrote a letter with her hands shaking wild,

“Look at me now are you proud of your precious child?”

 

But she knew that her parents weren’t the ones to blame,

It was the world that should bow down it’s head in shame

 

She stood up on the chair and looked out at the moon,

Just don’t think it’ll all be over soon

 

The chair fell down as she took her final breath,

It’s all over all gone, now she’s greeting death

 

Her mum walks in, she falls down to the floor,

And now nothing can take back what she just saw

 

The little girl that she raised is just hanging there,

Her body’s pale and her face is violently bare,

She sees the note and unfolds it with care,

All she does is stare, “How can this be fair?”

 

She starts reading as the tears roll down her face,

 

“I’m sorry Mum, but this world is just not my place,

I’ve tried for so long to fix this and fit in,

I’ve come to realise this world’s full of sin,

There’s nothing for me here, I’m just a waste of space,

I’ve got no reason to stay here with this awful race,

It’s a disgrace, I was misplaced,

Born in the wrong time and in the wrong place,

It’s ok though, ’cause you’ll see me soon,

You’ll know when your time has come, just look at the moon,

As it shines bright, throughout the night,

And remember everyone’s facing their own fights,

But i can’t deal with this pain, I’m not a fighter,

You’ll make it through the night, just hug your pillow tighter

So let the world know that I died in vain,

Because the world around me is the one to blame,

And I know in a year you’ll forget I’m gone,

‘Cause I’m not really something to be dwelled on,

That’s what they used to tell me, all those kids at school,

So I’m going by the law majority rules,

My presence on this earth is not needed any longer,

And if anything I hope this makes you stronger,

You’re the best friend that I ever had,

Such a shame I had to make you so very sad,

Just remember that you meant everything to me,

And to my heart, you’re the only one that held the key,

Now it’s time to go I’m running out of space to write,

And yes I lost my fight, but please just hold on tight

I’m watching over you from the clouds above,

And sending down the purest and whitest dove,

To watch over you and be my helpful eye,

So this is it world…

 

Goodbye!”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

**********I’m not Courtney Parker this is her song not mine. Just clarifying that.