i need to know

I need to know if I should. I mean I know that everyone I know would be better off, logically this makes sense. I also know that just by asking I have my answer, but that’s not enough. I am, and have done, what most people would consider unforgiveable. I am not religious. I do believe in reincarnation and genuinly thinkin make a better go if it next time round. I think my eife, friends and family deserve to be able to live their lives without the hassle or having me in them. I especially believe my wife could find true happiness if I wasn’t around. I’ve been like this for a while, no better alternative has presented itself.