Hmmm, I can’t remember. I think I was looking for my friends obituary and I saw this. I may have even googled that I was feeling suicidal. I’ve been on here for a few weeks now. I like to think that what I tell people and what I share makes a difference and helps one person at least to find hope.
Same, man. You are a man, right? Mick — seems male… Anywho, I love that you spell favorite with a U. And you seem really nice, it takes a lot of effort to come on here and talk. It’s really kind of you to offer everyone support on their posts.
It’s 11am here, what time is it in manic-euro-land?
Yeah, I’m a dude. Fucking 0330 here. I’m in Australia so we spell favourite and colour with u’s.
My mate killed himself in a very violent and destructive way, apart from that I had a guy suicide in front of my truck, but I’ve lived rough, went without food, was flat broke, homeless, alone, suicidal, now diagnosed with all this other shit.
I’d like to think that my words can stop at least one person from attempting.
Dude, nice. Australia! But man, I’m sorry about your friend. And 0300 is such a shit time to be up ruminating… Hah, hope you can sleep soon. That’s rough.
If you don’t mind my asking, what’s your mind racing about? The stuff you posted about? Anything you wanna share 🙂
Random stuff. I’m watching family guy, listening to music, and writing in chat rooms and forums. I think about my kids, if they’re safe and happy, music I hear that I want to learn, what I’m going to do tomorrow, I’m in a share house, so I’m trying to be quiet. Its hard to pinpoint my thoughts cause they come and go so quickly. I end up doing a million things at once and finish none.
I won’t sleep til tomorrow night, or tonight. Hard to tell. Sometimes I forget what I’ve said to people, but I know it would be honest and courteous, I’m not a nasty person or a troll or anything.
Yeah, sucks about old mate. He’d be 40 this year. He left behind a little girl. If I can change someone’s idea of suicide, then I’ve done my bit. It was on the news and in the paper and when I got the call, I didn’t believe them. Seeing his parents at the funeral then seeing his daughters fathers day card on his grave, fuck. That was the hardest thing I had seen.
Yeah? My kid isn’t old enough to make me a Father’s Day card. I have a son. I really can’t leave him, but I don’t get to see him as much as I’d like. I’m going through a divorce with his mother right now. She makes me feel 40, even though I’m only 30. It’s brutal. How many kiddos do you have? What kind of music do you play, and which instrument(s)?
Three. I’m going through the same as you. I had mediation yesterday, but we couldn’t agree on custody so we have to go before family court. Its fucked and going to cost big bucks, but she couldn’t care less. I get them one weekend every fortnight. I asked for 50/50 but she got her back up straight away. If it was 50/50, she wouldn’t get maintenance. Not that that bothers me, giving her money, but I’m completely excluded from everything in the kids lives. I miss out on performances, school plays, Christmas stuff. Worst of all, the women get what they want and the guy has to fight for very little contact. Oh well.
Lots of old stuff, the doors, Hendrix, the who, the Beatles, then lots of heavy stuff fear factory, Metallica, pantera. Heaps. I play guitar. I’ve got an acoustic but I want an electric again. I had two epiphone SG’s, but the ***** ex made me sell them.
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Hey, mick. What brought you to SP?
Hmmm, I can’t remember. I think I was looking for my friends obituary and I saw this. I may have even googled that I was feeling suicidal. I’ve been on here for a few weeks now. I like to think that what I tell people and what I share makes a difference and helps one person at least to find hope.
What brought you here?
Same, man. You are a man, right? Mick — seems male… Anywho, I love that you spell favorite with a U. And you seem really nice, it takes a lot of effort to come on here and talk. It’s really kind of you to offer everyone support on their posts.
It’s 11am here, what time is it in manic-euro-land?
Yeah, I’m a dude. Fucking 0330 here. I’m in Australia so we spell favourite and colour with u’s.
My mate killed himself in a very violent and destructive way, apart from that I had a guy suicide in front of my truck, but I’ve lived rough, went without food, was flat broke, homeless, alone, suicidal, now diagnosed with all this other shit.
I’d like to think that my words can stop at least one person from attempting.
I’m so glad you Aussies spell “colour” and “favourite” the right way… makes my soul weep when people miss out the “u”…
Hahaha. And humour. Mum. Can’t think of any others
Aluminium is one that really gets me.
Its pronounced aloominum.
Oh god… a piece of me just died after reading that… ahahaha
Where are you from?
England, near Liverpool
Cool. I had a mate that grew up in Bath, near Manchester isn’t it?
We’re Irish blood. Dads, dad was born there. Dundalk. I think its north of southern Ireland.
Yep right next door to Manchester. I’m of irish blood as well… somewhere along the line.
Whereabouts in Australia are you?
South Australia. I’ve lived in every state, except Tasmania.
I was born in Brisbane and move around from there.
Thank god vaguely insulting impersonations of Australian accents can’t carry through the internet…
Hahahaha. Righto cobber. Fair dinkum of ya to spout out an Aussie accent, mate.
Dude, nice. Australia! But man, I’m sorry about your friend. And 0300 is such a shit time to be up ruminating… Hah, hope you can sleep soon. That’s rough.
If you don’t mind my asking, what’s your mind racing about? The stuff you posted about? Anything you wanna share 🙂
Random stuff. I’m watching family guy, listening to music, and writing in chat rooms and forums. I think about my kids, if they’re safe and happy, music I hear that I want to learn, what I’m going to do tomorrow, I’m in a share house, so I’m trying to be quiet. Its hard to pinpoint my thoughts cause they come and go so quickly. I end up doing a million things at once and finish none.
I won’t sleep til tomorrow night, or tonight. Hard to tell. Sometimes I forget what I’ve said to people, but I know it would be honest and courteous, I’m not a nasty person or a troll or anything.
Yeah, sucks about old mate. He’d be 40 this year. He left behind a little girl. If I can change someone’s idea of suicide, then I’ve done my bit. It was on the news and in the paper and when I got the call, I didn’t believe them. Seeing his parents at the funeral then seeing his daughters fathers day card on his grave, fuck. That was the hardest thing I had seen.
Yeah? My kid isn’t old enough to make me a Father’s Day card. I have a son. I really can’t leave him, but I don’t get to see him as much as I’d like. I’m going through a divorce with his mother right now. She makes me feel 40, even though I’m only 30. It’s brutal. How many kiddos do you have? What kind of music do you play, and which instrument(s)?
Three. I’m going through the same as you. I had mediation yesterday, but we couldn’t agree on custody so we have to go before family court. Its fucked and going to cost big bucks, but she couldn’t care less. I get them one weekend every fortnight. I asked for 50/50 but she got her back up straight away. If it was 50/50, she wouldn’t get maintenance. Not that that bothers me, giving her money, but I’m completely excluded from everything in the kids lives. I miss out on performances, school plays, Christmas stuff. Worst of all, the women get what they want and the guy has to fight for very little contact. Oh well.
Lots of old stuff, the doors, Hendrix, the who, the Beatles, then lots of heavy stuff fear factory, Metallica, pantera. Heaps. I play guitar. I’ve got an acoustic but I want an electric again. I had two epiphone SG’s, but the ***** ex made me sell them.
What music you into?
Hey, Mick. Got swamped at work. My bad, I’ll be on later though for sure. Try to get some rest, you, like everyone else, deserves it.
http s: //ww w. youtub e.c om/wat ch?v=1vxQs84FMWQ (without the spaces)
All good. I need sleep, but won’t get it. That’s OK I’m energised and feeling pretty good.
Chat later.