It’s funny.
I claim to have no friends, no one that i trust, yet i am constantly on this search to find someone i can trust thoroughly, someone i can share every stupid idea or deepest secret with.
Yet i know that such a thing is unlikely. Why, you may ask (or probably not since pretty much no one is going to read this)? Because though I’m the type of person that likes to be left alone, i also desire to be seen as special, unique, etc. I want to revel in others’ awe of me (does that make sense?).
I want to fall in love and live happily ever after (yeah, i know thats weird for a guy, but still).
But then at the same time, i also want to be a dragon or be able to summon fire or move stuff with my mind. I guess I’m just too idealistic for my own good. I guess thats my curse.
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I feel the same, sometimes. Does the mere idea of loneliness scare you?
It does. To the point where I have to stop thinking completely just so I can avoid thinking about it.
“Nothing is more common than the wish to be remarkable” – Shakespeare
Yeah, everyone wants to be Keanu Reeves in The Matrix but not everyone is. Life is filled with disappointments, and dreams often don’t come true. Good luck though.
Thanks. I’ll need every bit of luck I can get.
AJokeOfFate ,
interesting , you said “someone i can share every stupid idea or deepest secret with.” in real life you have to be careful! you can count people like that on one hand during a life time! true you have ideas perhaps that maybe unconventional? they belong to you, the world is not ready for you perhaps? I’M LIKE THAT TO!, this site is a good site, say what you want here, but don’t think that everyone you know or meet is on your side, or understanding, that’s the way it is and it will never change, accept it.
Thank you for the advice. And I know that very few people are genuinely reliable, but that will not stop me for looking for them.
Because that’s your only choice to find someone who can truly understands you. Deep inside we know that we deserve something better.. we deserve to be happy at the end of the day.. that maybe someday our pain will be paid off by something we truly deserve
You’re right.
I guess I feel that if I don’t find someone like that, I’ll lose hope completely. I’ll essentially break apart (rip?) at the seams.
So I guess I have to keep looking until I find what I think I deserve. Even if I have to suffer through the pain to get it.
Why do you think it is weird for a guy to want to fall in love and live happily ever after?