What’s the difference with someone saying and being suicidal to someone who just says what the fuck I want to not endure no more pain and just does it. Like thank fuck I can vent because I’m soo suicidal. I’m in the not care stage can’t see any way out and time will just make me worse and worse and worse until I can’t cry become emotionless and not feel or care for anything. Fuck society just fuck society. When I had a psychotic break I swore at a police officer well actually i called him a pedofile but i was mentally deranged out of this world at the time and they convicted me for assault locked me up in a psych ward and now I can’t travel where I want to go or get a decent job and worse off I’m now on high doses of antipsychotic I’m screwed i fucked my life up.
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There’s a quote I saw a while ago about (it’s about to be horribly butchered) “The measure of a people are in how they treat those in the dawn of life, those in the twilight of life, and those in the shadow of life.” Our society has failed those in the dawn of life (look at how corrupt the foster care system is in most of the U.S.), we do a decent job with those in the twilight (at least for now, social security is ending, so we will be failing them soon), and we never even bothered with those in the shadow of life. That’s not even a complaint about the U.S., it’s a complaint about the world. The most any country has done for the ill is throw them an occasional parade and give them barely enough to survive off of. And we don’t even try helping the individual get their life back together. One of my best friends has Asperger’s and he’s gotten “county aid” to find work, but the aid is little more than a few “help wanted” adds from a newspaper. Maybe one day our society will take care of the dawn, the twilight, and the shadow, but I think we need world leaders that have really suffered and will actually fight for all of us that screwed over due to events we had no control over.
Sorry if this sounded kind of rant-like, I’m not sorry for you, I’m angry, and I wish I could do something to help you right now.
That’s a great response from majesticwalrus. I have no confidence in the medical system as it is. It seems to promote a downward spiral…giving drugs, then drugs to offset the drugs and side affects which create more problems than they solve and long hospital stays and wealthy insurance companies, wealthy pharmaceutical companies, wealthy totally in debt doctors. It’s fucked. The whole system. Sorry your caught in it. I hear you!
There’s something called a clean slate bill in my country where all convictions get quashed over a certain period of time as if it has never happened but if you served time in a psyche ward instead of being sentenced it will never be quashed. And the same goes to live in my favourite country. I’m now no longer good character and I lived there 7 fukin years and never once slipped up. I can’t travel to any country in the world because of this bad character I so called am now. Anyways it totally wasn’t my fault for getting sick. Shit has happened to me because I was anti illuminati and anti haarp out wardly and was going against all that so I became a target from some agency or group for months. Weird phone calls information I posted would mysteriously be deleted. Stop at the lights in traffic and some fucker tried popping my hood and take my car keys, men in business suits driving flash ute doing symbolism on me. It drove me to the point of coming back to my own country and becoming mentally unwell. Fuck you think that’s fucked they shone torches into house sent a govt lady into my house asking me really fucked up shit.. over it man
My fault. I had an awesome job and a wife and life before being caught up in secret societies and their evil twisted ways
Society’s primary function is to protect itself. Just like a beehive or an ant’s nest, everything is directed at protecting the collective group. So the problem happens to those who aren’t “in” the group. And that’s why society will never give a crap for the mentally unbalanced, the criminal element or the just plain lunatics amongst us. We are a threat. So society does everything in its power to label, isolate and defend itself against threats like us, even if it means destroying our lives and turning us into real monsters. Because life is cheap and if it gets down to it they can just put a bullet in our heads and say he was a threat. And on the 6 o clock news everyone applauds how society is kept safe. Personally one of my biggest reasons for living is just to spite society because they would LOVE it if I killed myself.