why cant i go

We’re a bunch of suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids that suicide isn’t the answer.

Depression feels like there’s this void inside you that grows bigger and bigger. It’s okay to fall, it’s okay to be sad, it’s okay to be angry. It’s okay to be depressed. I think all that matters is what you do after you’ve accepted that.

Being alone isn’t what it’s all cracked up to be. My family kind of hates me, my mom only has me around as her babysitter, my dad doesn’t even care for my existence, and my friend only likes to have me around so she can drink with me, other than that, she doesn’t talk to me unless it involves getting plastered. My siblings don’t care about me, except my youngest sister, she cries if i’m gone for more than hour.

Being alone friggin’ sucks. Disconnecting yourself from people that love you, makes them feel worse when you’re gone. They start to feel like they weren’t enough to you. Then they get depressed. It’s an awful cycle.