I don’t know how to handle life and all the feeling that come with it anymore. Every morning I wake up with anxiety and deal with it all day and I lay in bed for hours wishing I could just stay asleep forever. I don’t know what ive become, ive pushed all of my friends and family away. I don’t know how to talk to people, but most of all im so lonely and heartbroken, and I have been for so long. every girl I meet once she gets to really know me she runs away from me. the first girl I ever had a relationship with i was 16 and the whole time she was seeing another guy, and that destroyed me, 4 years later I haven’t had a relationship since, even though ive tried, it just hasn’t happened cause every girl I meet doesn’t want me when they get to know me. then a couple of months ago I meet this girl and we had an amazing night, probably the best night of my life. but now she doesn’t want me, she keeps going back to her old boyfriend and keeps me tied on a little string andi cant help but follow because I have such strong feelings for her, but like every other girl, she started to run away again. I was already miserable and lonely before but now I want her so bad and cant have her and im so lonely and the pain in my heart is starting to drive me crazy and I cant handle it much longer, I feel like this has proven that no women will want me once they get to know me, why does this world hate me? I feel like my only reason for existing on this damned earth is to suffer, and I don’t think im going to take it much longer. people keep saying it will get better but Ive been dealing with lonliness for 4 years and then this happened to me and it was the final straw, the world gave me love again and then ripped away from me once I was happy. and all I see when I look around this world is a world full of soulless people who don’t give a fuck about anything, people have become robots, I a world where those who lie and control others get to be on top, while people like me just wants to find peace and happiness are on the bottom with no one who gives a fuck about them. qnother sad thing is im 20 years old and still live with my parents, yet they think im just some depressed asshole fuck up with a dad whose been in prison my life. why does this happen to me?!?!? why have I been given this life of suffering
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“Why does this happen to me?”
Short answer, because you allow it to.
When you put all of you another person, and especially, when that person is not committed to you; You will find yourself with nothing but a broken empty heart. Being needy with a girl is like garlic to a vampire. We are all desperate for love, many posts (mine included) here are about that longing for that feeling of connection. My $.2 on girls, be less needy, give 2 fucks less. Also, you must find yourself attractive first. Work on yourself, embody a hobby.
My heat is broken. I’m still here. I hope you will be too.
@cephalus no it’s not that this poster allows it to happen to them. i don’t like that you said that. i don’t let myself feel like shit when you say it’s my responsibility to feel good because you don’t understand the implications of your words.
I know how you feel????. Because i something of the same.
I agree with Cephalus. Gender doesn’t come into it however, If you’re needy toward someone you like, they run away. It’s one of the laws of this world… Chase something and it will run away. Actually I speak from experience, I’ve been needy. But literally the moment I gave up, stopped caring, stopped needing to be loved and wanting to date… That’s when guys started chasing me. Hell I don’t even make an effort anymore, I do my face and that’s it, dresses are something I can’t be arsed to wear. Heels are for those who care. But when I go out in my jeans and leather jacket… I get hit on way more than I ever did dressed up to the nines. When you embody the spirit of someone strong who stands on their own and doesn’t give a fuck about anyone… People want you to notice them. Look at the history of man- our very survival depended on being surround by the strongest leaders, strong people don’t ‘need’ anyone.
Hey! QuirkyFox, get out of my head! You articulated my thoughts, but more yours clearer.
Nah I’m staying, ‘in your head’ is a rather fine place to be.
Also you gotta be tough… Work out, train hard. Everyone loves a fit body. Just remember when someone does start chasing you and you like them… let them in.