He wanted me Because he was afraid of being alone
He wanted to show me off
He wanted to isolate me
When my world stopped revolving around him
He stopped caring
A ring on my finger
That meant nothing
It was just another way to mark me
A way to mark his territory
I always knew I was easy to forget
But did he have to move on so quick?
I always knew I was nothing special
But I never thought I was just a sick thrill
That was Allan.
I thought he was my best friend
I grew to like his fiance
We got along well
At least from what I could see
Who would’ve guessed
That there was so much more to tell
He wanted my body
Not the disaster that is me
“FUCK ME. FUCK ME”
Theyd beg and plea
Not just him..
No..
Him…
Her…
Me…
Makes three
The one I thought I could trust
The one I believed in
Is drowning in lust
And doesn’t give a damn.
That’s Devin.
How could I be so fucking blind?
How could I not see what’s right in front of my eyes?
How could I believe that anyone was worth my time?
You’re all the same..
Lie after lie
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It’s a fact of life that people often want to use others to get what they ‘want’…whatever that want is. Once I met a girl at a club (when I was younger), she wanted me for sex, I wanted a relationship with her. If you’re the romantic type-it’s better to wait for someone who wants to build a serious relationship with you also.
I realize some men will lie and tell you what you want to hear and when you give it up for them, they’re on to the next one. There’s also the issue of when we did we all start lying to each other and using one another. At some point we’ve all gone through some hurt/pain that made us stop being honest with others. Sometimes honesty is a turn-off so people invent personas that others would find appealing-to achieve their goals.
Sorry to hear about your experiences-fwiw, I think you’re very pretty (based on the pics you uploaded) and you’re far from being forgettable and ‘not special.’ You just have to find the right person who can appreciate you for who you are. Having some basic standards in how others treat you would enhance your appeal and save you from being used by others again-to the same extent.
I’ve always had standards. I never had sex with either of those people. After 3 years of “friendship” and a 2 year “relationship” things fell apart.. I guess my morals just aren’t whats popular these days.. But I was so young.. I wasn’t ready to take that step and because of that, the only 2 people I thought I had are gone. Almost wish I was capable of just crawling into bed with someone.
Hmmm, I see-I thought it might’ve been the opposite. Maybe they got tired of waiting to have sex with you and got bitter. Your post was more ‘poetic’ than descriptive-so I’m trying to read between the lines here.
If you didn’t feel ready, there’s nothing wrong with that, it’s your choice. Though waiting for 2-3 yrs to have sex with someone could get frustrating. Oh I’m sure those won’t be the last 2 people you’ll have-cute girls have it easier than us guys in the dating world.
Well I have a bed and I’m someone, so whenever you’re capable of crawling into bed, hit me up. lol 😉
I see where you’re coming from and I understand completely. But I wasn’t even out of high school. And I think I waited so long because I really didn’t want to have sex with this guy. He was great. I practically worshiped the ground he walked on. But I don’t think that attraction was ever really there for either of us.
Lmao Thanks for the offer, but I’m pretty happy with my own bed right now.
Of course I was only kidding-don’t mind me, sometimes I like to inject a little humor into serious topics-though my timing could use a little work.
Provocative. I like the way you paint.