I am going to commit suicide. I want to. I am a really blessed kid, but I do not like living. Just seems pointless. The issue that is eating at me so much is whether or not to tell my mother and sister beforehand. I think about it as if it were a terminal illness. Would my mother and sister rather me get hit by a bus and hear that I’m dead, and have it hit them like a brick wall? Or would they rather me have a terminal illness, where I only have, say, three months to live? I like to think the latter, so as they have time to cope with it. Even if it may be a difficult three months, it would be easier for them down the road, because the ability for closure would be there, and we would be able to have each other just a little longer before I go. Although, it may lead to not only an extremely awkward three months, but it also might lead them to call the police and have me locked up in jail or an insane asylum (I am not crazy. I am a normal kid who just does not want to live. I enjoy living, but I do not want to any longer.)
Any thoughts?? Thank you in advance. 20 year old in need of advice…
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Method talk isn’t allowed, I got banned for telling someone to use a shot gun lmao
Fire arms are very effective at blowing things up though just an arbitrary thought, I was going to go hunt PETA members who chain themselves to trees at dawn which scares off the crows and pigeons I like to feed in the morning and I realized how powerful guns are, just sharing my epiphany!
Why don’t you want to live anymore? There must be a reason or two or three for why you feel like doing something so drastic.
The only reason to tell someone, is if you are asking for help. Life f ing sucks but why not give it a few years. I’m miserable, but glad i didnt succeed years ago, because I have had alot of good times.
Life is pointless. I feel the same way as he does.
After you do it it’s going to be lights out. You won’t feel a thing.But your mother and sister will cry a lot and that is bad. Imagening my mother crying made my insomnia worse.. WHY DO WE LIVE? TO DIE? TO GO INTO NOTHINGNESS? FUCK CHRISTIANITY!
You said you enjoy living so why do you want to die? of course life is boring but still there are some things to do in life especially if you were “blessed” like what you’ve said..
Sorry, ackerman, I had no idea it wasn’t allowed.
Krank and jenn, I don’t know. I feel like all of this is a big waste. I’ve heard that when you say you want to commit suicide you are really asking for help. And part of me wants help, but part of me feels no help is needed. I feel I am right in wanting to die because it is what I want to do. The world is a rough place, and I would rather die and drift off into eternal tranquility. It just seems so calming, and I can think about whatever I want. It’s just so nice. I don’t have a specific reason why, at least I do not think so. I have had lots of great times as well, but what is the point in all of this?
Costy- I feel awful that I am going to make my mom and sis upset- traumatized, really. I fear that if I die I might be forced to watch them cry hysterically and I won’t be able to look away and that thought scares the hell out of me because the last thing I would want to do is upset my family but at the same time I do not want to live to make them not cry, you know?
Ziad- I’m not bored. I just don’t really get the point. Why am I going to school, trying to get a job, attempting to make money? For what? So much stress and work for I have no idea what reason.
Generally speaking, I think each of us is here to make life easier for others.
Why we’re here as an aggregate, is beyond my pay grade.
What you need is religion. Look into Judaism. It will give you plenty of meaning to life.
You are more than welcome to have your own beliefs, but religious proselytizing is generally not well received here.
My apologies. You are right.