Broken inside

I’m stuck and I can’t seem to pull myself together. Each day I wake up it’s a gamble. I never feel happy, it’s either thoughts of suicide and tears or just being idle.

I miss the place when I was the life of the party. I used to feel great. I had friends and did many activities.

I have always had a void inside myself and filled it with things. From a boyfriend, shopping, working and even drugs. The past year that void feels like a gun shot in my soul and all the things that filled it don’t work anymore.

I feel empty and broken. I was always the go-getter with a great attitude ready to conquer anything. Now I don’t want to shower or leave my house.