Deep Thoughts.

My dear friend,
Don’t worry. Cry, sleep, and feel those feelings. Yell if you need to. I’ve been diagnosed with chronic depression, it comes and goes. Sometimes it lasts for months, sometimes for only three days. Either way every time it’s slow and gradual. I get anxious and my chest feels like its collapsing in when I cry. It’s better to feel those feelings.

If I’ve learned anything it’s that you can’t ever really rely on your friends, but more so family. And if you don’t have family, then think about getting a pet. And if you can’t have a pet, then go out and experience the world at it’s finest. It’s all about getting away and finding a way to cope healthily with the hurt and loneliness. Trust me, there is nothing wrong with you. You are amazing and it gets better.

“The calm always comes after the storm.” Just write this everywhere and remind yourself to keep fighting. Find your passions and pursue them. Lay in the grass one day and fall asleep or watch the clouds. In the end, no one’s opinion on you matters but your own. Don’t let people get to you, because that is exactly what they want. Learn that you are better than your backstabbing ‘friends’ and make it apparent to them that you won’t take their bull anymore. Hold you head high and smile at yourself in the mirror. You are capable of doing such great things, you just have to work and struggle and work for it.

There isn’t anything wrong with being a ‘loner’, maybe what you need is to separate yourself from the crowd and go off on your own for a while. Learn how to love yourself, experience life, and just to get away from the bullshit.

… Please don’t give up my friend. I can tell you it’s not worth it, this is only the beginning of your life, you have so many years to live and so many lives to touch or help. So many possible things to create and share.

“Suicide does not end the chance of life getting worse; it eliminates the possibility of it ever getting better.” I love you stranger, if no one else does I do and I feel your pain.