new to this site…

hi, I’m new to this page and I never would’ve expected myself to end up on it either. I’m 17, and I have what you would call an “easy life” but it’s anything but easy. Ive been feeling like crying all the time. I’ve tried against my life 6 times and every time I feel like I’m finally going to do it someone comes in and stops me. I’m honestly so done with the life I’m living and I’m tired of all the stress and people just judging all the time. I feel like everything would be better if I was dead. I’ll finally be somewhere where I can feel freedom. I have no freedom to do anything. although I have a family who loves me and friends who support me I feel disgusted in myself. I can’t go on another day without Looking at myself and crying because everything I’ve done has just fucked myself over so many times I just don’t want to live anymore.