Emotional turned physical

I’ve been dealing with depression for the most of past 4 years (I’ve been hospitalized at 17). My girlfriend of six months just left me without a word of explanation. She’s been amazing the whole time, but there were no warnings. I don’t really believe in the concept of soulmates but I thought we were perfect for each other. I felt she was the only person to really understand me (I’m almost 21). For two weeks now, it has felt like someone stuck hundreds of shards of glass in my body and left it there. I’m not someone who often had physical pains before, but since this happened, I’ve been having random shooting pains everyday around my ribs and lower back. Who ever decided that emotional pain is simply a matter of attitude…? This hit me harder than I ever thought would, and I can’t stop thinking about gasing myself.

Thanks for listening.