The Trigger

I know on my previous post, I talk about how things started to work out for me. However, as expected, my world has crumbled down again, and I’ve found the trigger. My own father. He doesn’t love me, he is not proud of me, all he does is blaming me and being sarcastic as hell to me. He gives this overwhelming affection to my sister, he talks to her, he shows how much he loves her in front of me.

These past couple days, I felt perfectly fine. Today, I feel like shit. I started crying with no reason again, I have this urge to hurt myself. I don’t know what to do. I once read an article how you should avoid things that trigger your suicidal behavior, but mine is my own family. How can I avoid that? How do I stop feeling like a worthless human being when my own family think I am.