They stare at me while I crave you

I don’t understand how you can come across someone and just click with them and before you know it, really start to like them in a romantic sense. What makes some people more outstanding than others? Why is it we can create this unique bond with someone that inevitably will be there forever whether you like it or not, or why do others just outgrow their significant others without reason? I’ve been thinking about you for the past 6 months now and I knew when we were “together” for the three short months it of course wasn’t love. But now it’s been so long, even with us not talking so much, I have beginning to question if I really am starting to love you. Can you love someone because of the past? I think of the butterflies I get when you (rarely) text me. Those two nights you stayed with me (used me for a place to stay) after EDC when I was perpetually wasted for 18 hours straight in order to handle you being here, with an acid trip in the middle. I don’t remember much besides at some point we were kissing, at some point you roughly pulled me under you kissing me harder, asking why I’m such a “God damn turn on”. I don’t remember who kissed who first or any of the details, just how you hugged me before leaving and when I said see you next semester you corrected me that you’d see me before then. Am I always going to be so pathetically craving you?