This is the last fucking straw! I can’t get a known slum lord to rent to me because of my credit and my name change from a female name to a male name is surely the trigger that set him off, but he had already decided against renting to me before he even got my application. He didn’t look at anything. He just knew he didn’t want some freak there.
I’m too fat and ugly to ever be loved, laid, or even be accepted as a roommate. I’m destined to be homeless and alone and no one has any fucking idea what it’s like to be homeless and disabled, barely able to get around, living in pain and have your legs swell up 3-4times their size because you never get to lay the fuck down and sleep!
Then one of my jobs won’t pay me unless I get a Chase account, or one of the other 3 major banks that you can transfer funds to from a Chase account. But I can’t get a real bank account because of the credit cards that were stolen and only having a 450 credit score!! Plus even if I had a real account, surely the credit card companies would start sucking out every penny and leave me broke 100% of the time! So now I can’t even claim to make enough to rent a place since half of my income is being withheld indefinately!! Plenty of people use prepaid cards you can get from fucking walgreens, currency exchange, green dot, etc. As their primary account and live off of that but everyone including my so called friends are going to jump my shit and tell me I have no right to be mad and I’m making excuses and all this shit, that I just need to go get a real bank account like everyone else when I sure as fuck can’t! And the ey don’t understand the concept of living week to week! I said I won’t be able to eat a fucking thing this week coz I didn’t get paid and I get hit back with shit like I’m unnecessarily whining for no reason, with this oh come on you haven’t gone a week wi the out pay! Well when you’re broke by pay day you are expecting to get paid so that you can survive until the next pay day!! And since I didn’t get paid I WILL FUXKING STARVE FOR THIS WHOLE GOD DAMN WEEK!!!!
So I can’t eat, I can’t pay rent now with half my income taken away because I’m not as fucking rich and privileged as everyone else to have a Chase, Bank of America, or Wells Fargo account like all the oh so normal people!!
I’m so fucking done! I can probably get a prescription that should help a little to fucking end this shit once and for all. Fuck everyone!! They can all sit and spin!!
That’s not directed at anyone here but the people making my real life even more of a living hell!!
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I’m really sorry to hear the guy turned you down. That wasn’t fair at all. :/
Are you able to pay for a few weeks or even a month at a motel so you’ll have somewhere to stay temporarily? (They should give you a discount if you book a room for a while.)
3 nights in a hotel is nearly $600 after tax, no I can’t stay there all month.
Motel and hotels are different motels are cheaper
This is Chicago. Look up the prices for yourself. No cheap motels. Still around $100 a night plus taxes at the cheapest.
disgusting,
your not going to like this but you reap what you soe, me too! you have to pay for your your sins, and the only way is to become responsible, why on earth would anybody trust you? people aren’t dyeing to get fucked, turns things around. it’s your only hope.
I’ve worked my ass off!! Don’t give me that shit if it were true then I have fucking earned what everyone else has!!!!!
Rocketman! Remember me?
Society is unfair and judgmental and people will always judge and discriminate. I know what you mean about your friends. We all have our own problems that are real problems to us but sometimes other people just seem to trivialize them and can’t accept that they are real problems that are having a serious effect on us. I have done it myself.
I’m almost 50 with problems that I feel have destroyed my life but I often see young people still in school posting things about one of their friends not getting along with another of their friends and this guy likes me but I like his friend but his friend already has a girl and I hate her and I want to kill myself. I can’t help but think, omg, someone likes you and you have friends, I wonder what that feels like and how could such a trivial thing such as some guy you like not liking you back, make to want to end your life.
But I realize that this is their life and these things are very serious to them and maybe when I was at school if i had ever had friends and had dated and had been in a similar situation of liking someone who didn’t like me back I would have reacted the same. Then people will look at my problems and think I should just get over them and just learn to accept them. It doesn’t help anyone’s situation. Everyone has different lives and different tolerance levels and different ways of coping.
You just have to try and ignore your friends when they say crappy shit like that to you, they just don’t get it. Is there any way you can work on fixing the problem with the stolen credit card so that you can get an account with one of these banks. If not, have you explained the problem to your employer and asked them what they would like you to do now so you can be payed as you are unable to get one of those bank accounts. There is usually a solution and there was most likely many people before you in very similar situations, so I’d ask your employer and if they don’t know, I’d go in and ask at the bank if they can help. I hope it all works out for you and that you can find a good apartment soon.
Why not borrow some money from family and friends?
Or sell some of your stuff?