I know I’m not pretty because many guys have left me for other women. My former fiancee constantly contacted prostitutes and denied it, posted pictures of his body parts online and to other women, and told me it wasn’t him. I’m being treated like I’m stupid. My boyfriend just said that I take credit for other peoples’ work, but he also told me I was fat. He talks about other girls’ butts and how smart they are, but whenever he says anything about me, I feel that it is fake. I’ve never done anything to deserve being loved in this life. Everyone else is married and has kids, and is happy. People look down on me because I’m single and they want to know what is wrong with me. I look at myself in the mirror and just see a fat girl who can’t get any friends. One time I got told “Are you pretending to be stupid? It’s pissing me off!! You need to stop pretending to be dumb.” I would never pretend to be dumb, so I guess I must be dumb. I don’t think anyone will ever love me or think that I am good enough for anything. I just want to die because I don’t think anyone will notice or care if I weren’t alive any more. My clothes aren’t pretty enough, nobody loves a girl that wears glasses, my abs aren’t flat enough, I don’t think the way people want me to. I’m really worthless as a human being and if there’s a God, he made me as a joke.
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You must take responsibility for yourself, if you don’t love yourself you will likely be used and abused in relationships, value yourself as you are for your good qualities and look to improve yourself where possible, no one is perfect, you have to make the most of what you have and find a special someone on an equal footing as yourself. Someone who treats you as you yourself would treat that one person whom you may spend the rest of you life with.
This is your life and your experience and you get out what you put into it.
I’m not sure if your homesexual but i love a girl with glasses… your a unique person inside and out and who cares about weight those people don’t know true beauty. You’ve gotta learn to love yourself before anyone can love you, i know it sounds weird, but never let anyone knock you down because when you get up hold your head high, if they think those things about you then they aren’t worth your time. By the way you talk i guess you need a friend to help you through this harsh and tough time… your a special girl and dpn’t ever forget that. And if you need a friend i’ll send you my email
I got down to 118 pounds, and a size 0-2 (depending on brand). My boyfriend just spent last night talking about this woman who was just pregnant and now looks great, describing her body in detail as if he were checking her out. Then, he talked about how rich his ex girlfriend was, that her family was very happy, and always got really nice things for Christmas. He told me he wasn’t interested in this girl and that I wasn’t rich like his ex. Today I brought it up, and he said he didn’t remember (he was under the influence). He also said I shouldn’t be so sensitive and that’s it’s a self-esteem problem and he’d talk about it later. However, in another conversation he was telling me about his 2nd job, and how all the girls want to be with him and are size 1. Sure he tells me I’m pretty, but not as much as he talks about other girls’ bodies. I lost 30 pounds and apparently it doesn’t look like it to him. This is just after I broke up with the fiancee that was calling up prostitutes. I felt great about myself until my boyfriend starting this behavior. He used to flatter me all the time and now it just seems like I’m not good enough for any one. I can’t even try to be good to myself, because someone comes along, sees that I’m happy, and then kicks me down to a point where I want to give up.