Have you ever thought of yourself as pathetic. I have too many times. Here I am, good life, good parents and siblings, good house, good school, and yet, I lack soooo much willpower. Will. I just have no will. Why do people with such screwed up lifestyles and in such screwed up situations be so awesome with great personality, character, and drive and I’m just here… No drive. I’m just so pathetic. I wouldn’t commit suicide due to feeling guilty towards my parents, the people who have looked after me, and all the people trying so hard but in such screwed up situations, but seriously… What the crap should I do with my life. I know I’m not normal with a normal outlook on life, and that’s going to be a huge letdown to my mom, but really, I even feel pathetic about getting stuff cause someone so much better than me could have got it. What should I do with my life?
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Even if the question that you ask should be answered only by yourself, i’d suggest just trying to accept who you are and do the best you can with what you are given. I got to that conclusion after years of feeling pathetic and just realized that expectations do no good, neither regrets. There’s always going to be someone better or more deserving than you, but that doesn’t mean that you don’t deserve those things as well (i don’t know if that makes sense). There’s one thing tho… will usually comes from the desire of doing something you actually like, so you might not have found your “thing” yet. Good luck finding it 🙂
I agree with Mf that you may simply have not found your thing yet. My “dream” path took a weird turn. In middle school, I wanted to be “something that had to do with computers.” In high school, I wanted to be a programmer. In college, I got my degree in Business. And now, I just want to be a writer. I had to try a little a bit of each to realize what I really wanted.
Mistakes hurt, especially when you feel like you’ve wasted your time and money. But sometimes you learn far more from the mistakes than the successes. Don’t stop looking, because you never know when you’ll find that one thing that becomes the new focus of your life.
I often think of myself as pathetic. I am no different from what you just described. I can’t give you any advice, I just want to tell you I think I understand what you feel.
I relate to this so much. My entire life I have felt nothing but pathetic. Not often but all the time. I am beyond pathetic. I have great parents who have a good amount of money and buy me everything. I have one job, that’s too succeed in school, and I completely fail it. Because just like you have no drive. No drive whatsoever, negative outlook on life and no motivation, I feel you man