Well, it’s the third day since I’ve left my dad’s house, yesterday I was very confident that everything would work just fine, now I’m not that sure… I’ve been feeling simply terrible since that, I simply don’t know what to do, which way to follow, I just want want someone to speak with, but who would want to be with me at a time like that? Even I don’t want to, I wish I could simply feel better but I can’t I don’t know for sure what’s wrong, but I’m sure something is just off… so many months and years having my feelings only for me so I could stop hurting those around me, over and over again, I started getting cold but now everything is just coming back and I simply don’t know how to deal with it.
It is simply too much and I just want to be heard but at the same time I don’t want to hurt anyone with this side of me, so I’m simply putting some distance between me and those who I care the most, but still… I want so bad to be with them… could someone… save me from myself?
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It’s easier said then done, but you need to slowly work on accepting yourself. Many people can be there for you and tell you what you probably want to hear, but when you are so depressed and feel so low about yourself it won’t matter because you won’t believe it.
The confidence you had yesterday can be attained again. Sometimes it’s best not to live in the future, worrying about what might happen, and instead live in the present.
Sometimes you don’t have to know what’s specifically wrong, sometimes all you need to know is you don’t feel right.
Sorry for some of the cliche commentary. I do hope things work out and you feel better.
No need for excuses. It’seems the good old cliché that always works but yeah I’be been trying to work it but if just feels like it never ends…
I’m here. People hates depressed people, but depressed people here can hear and understand you. We all feel the same. Alone. Lost. Too soft and sensitive for this world.
People hated me and made me depressed
Autistic is only a label on the face of a person. If you have communication problems with other people, it’s autistic feature. But anyway, we don’t care about labels. Psychiatry is not a stable science, DSM changes all the time, new labels are added, and other disease labels are removed. Personnally, I know for sure i have autistic features, wether I’m an autist or not, it doesn’t matter.
You feel weird because you have trauma, it’s simple to understand. How to feel “normal” with trauma: almost impossible.
Can you explain better your story?
Well, I always been pretty much like that ALONE. I was born with aspergher so I always had problems dealing with people, trying to understand, so I always have been very lonely, I also suffered a lot from bullying and ended up closing myself in really hard at one time. Lately I have been trying to open myself so I can feel alive once again.
I think I’m maybe autistic too. I’ve never been diagnosed, maybe I’m not, but it’s certain I have autistic features. I don’t know how much you need to be diagnostised “autist”, but anyway, it’s nothing but labels on people’s head.
I feel the same, too sensitive, and bullied a lot at school. Have you been diagnosed high IQ? It could explain a lot of thing also.
I never made an I test. But I happened to make a very long psychiatric test that diagnosed my autism, so I have a low empathy, at least I have pretty good arithmetic skills that explains why I never had trouble at school. But still… I’mean kinda weird I can be very sensitive sometimes but when I’moved alone I can get pretty rational.
I thought I was autistic one time. Scared the living hell out of me. I got tested and was negative for it. Plus the psychiatrist said I had good facial expression, eye contact, charisma and verbal communication skills. I asked him why I felt so different? He said it could be a lot of things, people with severe depression and anxiety feel tget wat often
It’s the opposite for me, my empathy is way too high.
It’s a myth that autistic people have less empathy. They just have more problems expressing how they feel and come off as unempathetic
I guess you are true, our brain Works differently so we have to learn how ordinary brains Works, how people usually act, once we’ve done that we can better understand the others, but it isn’t something given to us, we have to fight and try to learn every single day, at least that’s how it was to me. Sorry for taking so long to reply, I’ve been away for some days, a lot of things have been happening.
Well, I’m taking empathy as the skill of understand what the other feel and letting the other know how you feel and I’m pretty bad at it. Don’t know how to deal with it yet.