My Parents Hurt Me Mentally

I remember my recent birthday, it was horrible. My mom, and my dad kicked me to the dirt and left me to cry my eyes out in my bathroom because I went to a friends house that day (yes I did tell them). My dad smiled to me and said “happy fucking birthday”. How those words hurt me so much. And to this day I still don’t know what I did wrong. So much yelling and arguing, but for what? I don’t even know..

I also remember when I was supposed to go to a amusement park with some of my friends, but I got stressed and afraid because the night before my friend ditched me, and I bailed. My mom gave me shit and said I was insane, and I need to go to a hospital (I wrote about it in a last post). I was convinced I was by her. I was also forced to sit in the basement doing hard work to make my mom happy while crying and trying to find help from a friend who didn’t even help at all (now that I look back on it).

And today, I got more crap from them. My friend was having problems with his family and I offered a place to sleep at my home. I consulted with my parents first and they said yes, then, they made a last minute decision. They said I was getting into another family’s problems, I don’t see it that way. He told his own parents and they were ok with everything. My mom made me look like a horrible friend. He sat at his work for maybe 3 or 4 hours waiting to get a ride to my home.. He counted on me and I let him down all because my mom likes to see others sad. She made it seem like it was my fault. She blames being tiered for it.

I can’t stand it anymore. The constant shit I get from them, the way I’m let down, the way they are unsupportive. I want to die, every time they make it seem like it’s my fault for everything I want to. Even my sisters join in. I just want to be surrounded by people who love and understand me.

And with this, good day to everyone. Hopefully it’s been better than mine.