I’m 25 years old and I’m gay. It was hard coming out to my folks and close friends last year. I have never been on a date nor did dating apps helped me. I just cry myself to sleep, feeling lonely. I have got nice friends to hang out with but I still am empty and sad on the inside, just hoping I could come home to someone. It’s annoying when my friends are either in a relationship or married, and them asking about my non-existent dating life. I have hardly been happy since my sisters’ birth. I reckon that this is my destiny to be like this and feel bitter. I don’t know however I’m gonna comfort patients as a doctor with a fake smile whilst I’m sad on the inside. I just can’t help feeling like all of this is due to me. I’m just waiting to either wither away or find an end to this perpetual sadness. I’ve got no clue why people say suicide is easy way out to a problem. Suicide is very difficult to contemplate and to overcome instinctual need to live over the sadness is a tough battle.
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I’m so sorry you feel bad enough to find this place, but I’m so glad you’re here. It’s helped me feel less lonely, and I truly hope it’ll do the same for you.
I think you have so much time to find someone to come home to. Your opportunities might seem greater if you found ways to turn around bitter or lonely thoughts. You’re looking into a lonely past and comparing yourself to people around you, but you have your whole life ahead.
It isn’t your destiny to feel this way. You can look for ways to overcome it. If you become depressed, the feelings stick to you like glue. They overwhelm your thoughts. It becomes a cycle, over and over again. Once you learn to cut that cycle, bit by bit, your brain will look for another response. It can’t be done overnight, but it can be done.
I hope you keep writing here.
Once again Trix says the perfect thing… She is wonderful proof that sad people can offer comfort. Fake it til you make it, if you smile at some point it will become real
People who think suicide is easy have never held a loaded gun to their heads. Its hard to override your instincts and in a lot of cases takes multi attempts over years. If you are going to school to be a doctor you have a calling and purpose. Even if you arent/werent you’re still valuable. When I’m lonely i think about a fact that the perpetually dateless forget. There is always someone looking for you. There is a wonderful person who wants a life with you you just haven’t met them yet. You will.
3 things:
1. This is not your destiny, but if you believe it long enough it might become that.
2. You never know what’s going to happen in the future. Dating isn’t easy for heterosexuals either… give it time, get to meet people that have your sexual orientation (which might not be easy depending on where you are located), but don’t give up before really trying.
3. Suicide easy? nope. The act itself is really difficult. People stupidly assume that it’s “the easy way out” but they have no idea if they haven’t been there themselves.
That said, you say that you’ll become a doctor so i’m guessing you’re still in college. It takes a long time to find a suitable partner (again, gay or not). Don’t let the stigma get to you, because in this case you are your own best enemy (yeah, best enemy, if someone is a worst enemy he isn’t doing his job well, never liked the semantics of that one, lol). I do hope you find that special someone eventually, good luck.
3 things: (reposting, used a forbidden word)
1. This is not your destiny, but if you believe it long enough it might become that.
2. You never know what’s going to happen in the future. Dating isn’t easy for heterosexuals either… give it time, get to meet people that have your sexual orientation (which might not be easy depending on where you are located), but don’t give up before really trying.
3. Suicide easy? nope. The act itself is really difficult. People stupidly assume that it’s “the easy way out” but they have no idea if they haven’t been there themselves.
That said, you say that you’ll become a doctor so i’m guessing you’re still in college. It takes a long time to find a suitable love interest (again, gay or not). Don’t let the stigma get to you, because in this case you are your own best enemy (yeah, best enemy, if someone is a worst enemy he isn’t doing his job well, never liked the semantics of that one, lol). I do hope you find that special someone eventually, good luck.