It’s 4 AM and I havent slept a wink. I’ve been having trouble falling asleep lately.
I just passed the time cutting and burning myself. I still cant fall asleep.
Fuuuck! I hate this!
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Hi Ylem. I don’t mean to be glib but wouldn’t injuring yourself ramp up your adrenaline thus causing you to be even more amped up? I just know that when I rip apart my hands they throb, and although the pain is soothing and oddly blissful, it makes me unable to sleep.
I had 2 hours of sleep and Im up. It 6:30 AM. Everyone who fell asleep before me is still sleeping. *sigh of desperation*
I NEED TO GO BACK TO ASLEEP 🙁
I had 2 hours of sleep and Im up. It 6:30 AM. Everyone who fell asleep before me is still sleeping. *sigh of desperation*
I NEED TO GO BACK TO SLEEP 🙁
I am an insomniac. I take handfuls of bendryl to fall asleep some nights. Occasionally I mix benedryl and somonix together in a delightful combination I call lucid sleep. I fall asleep then dream half away for the rest of the night. I wish I still had my klonopin prescription but that is way to easy to abuse. I’d just stay stoned for the rest of my fucking life if the dr. gave me that manna from heaven prescription back.
away=awake.
I never take any meds to fall asleep. I hate doctors. My sleep comes when it comes. Usually I tire myself enough to fall asleep. I guess I was not tired enough.
New day now. I’ll find ways. Probably exercise or something…
I kill myself on the treadmill to release tension. I’d stay awake for days if I didn’t do something about it.
@Ylem: I find the fact you hate doctors interesting since you passed your 5th year med school exam.
Hear you on the insomnia, it’s frustrating. Exercise does help, but when i over do it i can’t sleep due to muscular pain, lol. I do hope you can get some sleep eventually, i remember a period when i couldn’t sleep normally for a bit more than a month (slept short periods of 20mins -1 hour and woke up), and jesus… i even forgot to open doors (and stupidly crashed onto them) and tripped with everything.
@Hazy… I know right. I find it funny actually. Believe me, some of my fellow students feel the same way too. We are studying to be doctors but hate being patients.
@MF… Shit. I dont want to be walking into closed doors. Come now sleep… Please…
Don’t worry, it does take a lot of time of almost no sleep at all to reach that level, lol. For the record (read the previous comments), both my younger sisters are on their first year of medical school and they hate being patients, and one of them despise doctors, so i guess it’s a normal thing. The other one is a stupid snob, but that’s another story, lol.
I do wonder tho… is it like being young and hating the old people’s rules and then you become old and forget you were young at one poeint? guess it varies from doc to doc, but whenever i see a middle-aged/old doctor with a lousy attitude i can’t help to think about that, lol.
BTW, this is my second week of not sleeping properly. Im moments away from that level. Lol.
And those lousy attitude doctors are even worse to medical students, just so you know.
I’d like to hear the story about your snobby sister some time. I have two of those.
@Ylem: I didn’t persue a Ph.D. because I fucking hate Ph.D.’s. LOL. I’d have to interact with them. I’d have murder on my mind daily.
@Hazy: good for you. I’ll need your help calming down my ‘Urges to kill… Rising’ Lol. Maybe I chose the wrong profession, but its too late now. Im doing my final year next year and the journey has been long. I have scars to prove it.