After lurking for a few months this is my first post here, let me just apologise beforehand for any spelling and grammar mistakes, english is not my native language.
i wish my parents were already dead so i could just go ahead and off myself, they have been so good to me throughout life i feel i can’t put them through the pain and grief of losing their only son.
But i dont know how much longer i can take this.
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Hi nextime1988. 🙂 I’m sorry it’s getting so hard to hang on for them. Do they know this is happening to you?
No they have no idea i put in my best efforts to present an happy face for them
I agree with the other comments. You don’t need to hide everything you’re going through. It might actually help to talk about it with them.
I feel you. My parents are the sole reason for me to keep holding on. Being an only child too, it puts me in a lot of pressure and I feel guilty for even having suicide thoughts.
I don’t know what to say but maybe try hanging on just a little for them, talk to them about how you are feeling, try to make it through life one day at a time. You can do it.
Nextime1988, I envy you. You have parents that actually care about you and your well being. I also am fond of people who are not native to the English language, just like me way back when. Maybe, just maybe you should tell your family about your problems, maybe they can be the solution to your problem…
If you love your parents and they love you then confide in them. They may be able to lift your burden of sadness.
Thank you all for your kind words, you see my parents kinda know what my situation is (just don’t know what are my thoughts and feelings about it ) and they have been so patient and supportive with me and that’s what makes me feel like shit because the way things are going i’ll have nothing to show for their patience nor will i be able to take care of them in their old age as they have taken care of me as child, its shameful
It isn’t shameful. It isn’t something you can help right now. Don’t expect the worst outcome though. It’s not too late for things to turn around again.