I was born august 17 1997. Im 18 now and i have been brutuly depressed since i was 9. I was in the group home since i was 9 and got out 4 years ago cuz i couldnt stand being so depressed. I was left alone and have been alone for a very long time. My family has abandoned me and i cant stand this feeling of beeing lonely. I have hallusonations and visions and sleep paralysis. I have been homeless for 3 years. Im dead broke and i only smoke weed and drink not often. Im so stuck. I want to die but i cant. I have one person that needs me in life. Maybe i should waste my life getting drunk on the streets idk. I want to be someone. I love helping people. I just…i need to help myself first but how can i do that when im so alone. Broke and without food or a house. I dont know where im going. I just know i want to die because this life seems to rough to live in. I live in santa rosa california of united states. Someone please help me…
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Hi, I am so sorry you’ve been so hurt. You can be someone. You can definitely have a future. You just need a stronger foundation and you need help. Help is out there.. Is there anywhere you can go to get some services? You shouldn’t be on the streets. I can search some numbers for you in Santa Rosa if you need.
Thank u but I have found help and I’m moving Into a studio soon! But thank u so much. I thought my post was just gonna be ignored
I am 44 years old. (My middle daughter is your age. ) My life has taken many, many, many twists and turns since I was 18. I have wanted to disappear into nothingness. I have wanted to leave this llife a thousand times. I haven’t yet give in and I have experienced love and joy, too.
You have a destiny. You have a purpose. Happiness will come along with the despair.. And contentment will come, too.
Never give up. Never lose hope.
I would think you would know about this, but just in case…
sonomacountyhomeless.org/sonoma-county-homeless-resource-guide
You don’t necessarily have to have yourself straightened out before you can help others. Many things in life are incremental and concurrent. Perhaps helping others is a way for you to help yourself!
I hope you find safety, security, and purpose.
Thank u, I’ve always thought nothing gets better, but maybe it does. Idk. We’ll see I guess.
Try to hang on. There are so many people that could use your help in any number of ways. Take you own situation one day at a time. Do you receive any disability benefits? If you were further south I could be more helpful. ?
Broken people sometimes are the best helpers.
Holy shit,
You are exactly 10 months older than me. I was born on 17 june 1998.
Do you think we can talk here on SP or on email cus this the first time i found someone that close to my age and therefore might actually get me.
Yes of course. Um prncavery@gmail.com
@princeisdead: are you around today? I’m thinking of you.
I’m here. Hello