Me and my boyfriend broke up a month ago. We were close to our 1 year, but he didn’t feel the same anymore. It was long distance so of course it wouldn’t last. I felt okay the first few weeks but now I feel like shit. My friends don’t seem to help, they try, but I don’t think they know that I think about suicide constantly. When I want to talk I feel pushed away. I feel alone and most of the time I want to be alone. I want nobody to talk to. I just want to die, I feel like everything is falling apart. How can I end myself so quickly?
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I’m sorry. LDRs are very difficult, I am in one myself (although we haven’t met in real life only online).
Your friends don’t sound very good I’m sorry. Real friends will much more willing to listen than this, no matter what the issue(s)/problems are
‘he didn’t feel the same anymore…’ what did he want out of the relationship? What did you want out of it? It looks like it stopped because of the distance, and as you know people can get fixated on other things, in LDRs people cant usually hug or touch each other etc… Maybe he found someone who lives closer. Maybe he didn’t like where it was going… I don’t know.
i wish i had some useful advice, I’m sorry this is happening.
This should not be the end in my opinion. All I can think of distracting yourself by doing other things although it may not really address the problem… But at the very least, no those friends don’t sound good
I know the feeling of someone not feeling the same anymore. And I’m crushed because of it. I don’t even want to live anymore. I’m lost and lonely because of it. And my family and friends just tell me to get over it. I feel bad, and sad all the time. I was ready to do it. But then I found this site, today. It helps alittle. If you want to keep talking about it. Hopefully we can help.
I know this is not what you want to hear (been there myself), but give it a bit of time. I had a couple of LDR (longest one 3 years) and it does take a while to get back to normal, because you’re kinda dealing with losing the person that really exists, and the person who you think you were with (which obviously are the same person, only difference are your expectations). What you feel might subside over time, and a month is really very little time to mourn a relationship.
I know we’re all different, but for what it’s worth, for me it takes the same amount of time the relationship lasted to be able to feel “like me” again, and in that period that “wellness” comes and goes… so yeah, even if we’re all different, i do believe you can overcome this. It does hurt like hell and i’m sorry that you have to feel like that, but again, that pain sort of goes away eventually (hopefully sooner than later).
The hardest thing for me after a break up is coming to terms with the fact the person is still out there living breathing and in the company of another woman. I thought numerous times in my life I would have rather been a widow because it is a final break. He can’t have any happiness if he is dead. Sound extreme? You betcha. It is really extreme. Another feeling I have gotten was wishing I could turn back time so I could prevent ever meeting the individual, because I just could face my abject existence. The only thing that worked was time and a lot of work on my part working through why I felt the way I did. I don’t have any easy answers tonight.
*not not face my abject existence.