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I think I almost accidentally died in my sleep about a week ago, because I was half awake and could feel myself slipping away into a deep unconsciousness – different than merely sleeping, and in my dream-like state I said to myself: this is it, if I let go I will never return, it will be lights out and life will be over for me. I guess my brain didn’t want that to happen, so I fully regained consciousness.

It was a sobering experience which has made me look differently at life and perhaps appreciate it a little more – and also be aware that I *could* possibly die in my sleep at any time (probably due to sleep apnea and not breathing enough). That in return has inspired more insomnia knowing that every time I go to sleep I may never wake up. Funny how you wish you would die, but when the reality of a possible demise hits you, your survival instinct and/or fear of the unknown kicks in.