I’ve decided that once I’m not pregnant anymore I’m going to go through with it. My children can go live with their fathers. My son won’t have the things my daughter has to know I love him but it’s whatever. I can’t do this anymore. 16 years of this is enough. 3/4 a life is enough. It’s never going to get better and I’m ready to go. I have a playlist made and I’ll put a list of things like bearers, honorary bearers, flowers, body plans ect together.
I can also get started on the letters for people.
As you can see in 16 years I’ve been planning and playing this out decently.
Had I been able to ever get employment and not been a pile on welfare I would’ve even saved to cover expenses for whoever might have to foot the bill.
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I’n sorry I honestly have nothing to say I’m speechless but please don’t do it there’s always something else to live for find that or at the very least try your best.
Amazing words. Gave me chills when I saw the angel. I hope u can find a reason to live.
Im sorry u hurt so much u might leave ur kids. Take care.
16 years preparing your suicide is very respectful. Good luck! I admire your braveness!