So fucking sick of this life! I hate my parents for bringing me here! Black parents are traitors and liars. Why would you live a shitty inferior life then bring me here to do the same? Black people are hated the WORLD over because the majority are criminals and too stupid to function. It does not matter if you try to be a “good negro” your image is tainted from birth. Outside of accra and lagos (probably built up by non-blacks) there are no black civilizations. Nothing but death, misery and disease becomes of any place we inhabit. I chose to remain childfree because I can’t imagine having children grow up to hate themselves as much as I do. I think about all the times I fit the stereotypes and it makes me sick. I think about how many white cities have been destroyed and how many children black men have abandoned and I wish I could genocide my entire race. Just trying to pay all my debt down and live a decent life until October 11. 25 is looong enough to live as a black person on this earth. I am fucking done with this wretched existence. I hate being a black woman I feel ugly and unattractive every day of my life. I hope my husband moves on to someone he really loves and does not have to feel like he settled anymore. I set up a funeral plan and I have been saving money. What more can I do to make sure my spouse is well to do when I go?
share your suicide story
Report Post
Please log in to report posts
5 comments
Sunsetblkwmn, i HATE THAT! SORRY 🙂 Black white brown tall short yellow midgets gay what ever! we are all humans, unfortunately we hear things about our races and begin to believe them ourselfs! we are all equal, it’s doesn’t matter what someone thinks, they are wrong if they think differently! in other words they are fucked up in the head! be proud of who you are, and not your race, if you think like that then you lose for no reason other than what somebody else thinks. and yes they are stupid!! and can kiss my Lilly white ass! and can kiss your black ass!!! ass is ass!!! 🙂
i can definitely understand where you’re coming from. i know what its like to hate what you look like and who you are almost every day, it doesn’t stop following you. what really surprised me is that you are already married and you have someone who loves you and proved it by marrying you and committing to you. go to your man about how you feel and better each other! i hate how this society is fucked and distinguishes races based on stereotypes and what a good black person is and what a bad black person is like what the fuck..?? fuck all that. and honestly the majority of people aren’t even thinking that about you, its mostly all in your head. everywhere i go i feel separate because of my race but its all in my head. i have people around me who love me and i feel confident enough in myself to keep going on through life, because i was born this way and thats how i should live my life. i hated my body so i started working out and eating healthier, if you hate your looks it depends what you can do ! like i used to have acne problems and now I’m acne free because i focused on myself and looked up natural ways on how to brighten my skin and lessen my acne ya know.. shit like that girl. you’re a beautiful person inside and out always.. you are loved and you’re way too young to have your life ended. everyone has different types of potential and i know you do, find yourself <3
Coming from a black guy, I want to encourage you not to give up hope on your race (or the whole species) just yet. For most of my life I’ve been to predominantly white schools and, being completely honest, a large chunk of the white kids were envious of black students in a few ways. The black kids at the school were generally viewed as the cooler kids, for example, and they saw us as borderline ambassadors for our race whenever we came up to make sure they didn’t say anything out of line. That’s a generalization, of course, but I think it’s a valid point. Things might be totally different where you are than for me, though. I was called a ****** for the first time last October by a few drunk frat guys who were too ashamed to repeat what they said when I asked them to clarify. In modern America a racist is one of the worst things you can be. And yeah, the black community does face a real problem with crime, but the majority of us aren’t criminals. We’re good people, just like you are. Before October 11th rolls around please just try to prove yourself wrong. Black people aren’t bad people and white people don’t hate us. I don’t usually say this, but if you take you’re life over this then I’m absolutely 100% sure you’re making a terrible mistake. The world’s a shitty place, but it’s got its little shining moments here and there. Please don’t give up.
I would like to talk to you. Please email me at Tomialatalo@inbox.com
What i would like to say is, that what you say is partly true. I dont agree on many of the basics.
However…i would still hope you adress me before going through with the plan. There are a couple of things i would still want you to know.
Liberal programming has lied to black people. We are NOT equal. The bad outweighs the good of my race. Instead if integrating and civik rights we should have left America and built up west Africa and Haiti with th knowledge we learned from whites. I learned the truth 2 years ago. Our parents LIED no one hates us because we are brown . Everyone hates because we act like subhuman animals. Unevolved archaic creatures trying to live in the modern world. When I lived in Japan I felt ashamed. Such a beautiful homogenous non-white country functioning WELL. What if racists are right? Everytime I look around see that what they say is true
And what I was taught in school was a lie. I am embarrassed everytime black people riot for criminals. I don’t want to be associated with my race and I also know other races won’t accept me so I choose to stay alone. Outside of my husband my anxiety is so bad I can not deal with anyone else I am so ashamed of my race.