I thought I was getting better, but everything just seems to fall apart after a while. I met someone I’ve truly fallen in love with, and I’m afraid he will leave soon.
Who wouldn’t get tired of someone who cries every night and freaks out about everything? Who wants to lay in bed with someone with open wounds and stained pants or bedsheets? Sure you might say, “He loves you for who you are even on your bad days.” But what if my bad days are every day? I feel like he will get tired of saying everything will be okay and get annoyed with how much I complain or when I just stop talking for days.
Tomorrow and Tuesday are my final exam days for my courses for this semester and I’m so close to failing. I have to pass these classes but I’ll fail just like at everything else I try my best on.
I just want to sleep for forever and not have to go through this anymore.
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Although it is hard for me to summon up the strength to put together a sentence at the moment, I just have to say that I feel the same way as you about a guy I have just begun seeing. I can’t say I “love” him just yet, but I also fear he’ll get sick of me just for being who I am. I keep trying to figure out if I should spare him the hassle and just break things off with him. I don’t have looks, personality or mental stability.
That is the very scary part about getting into a serious relationship. It’s kind of like being on a rollercoaster (sorry for the cliche). It’s exhilarating and fun but in the back of your mind you’re wondering if the car will come off the tracks at the next turn.. It did for me. I hope your relationship turns out better than mine. I remember having the same thoughts and worries, and I was right to have them. I really hope that doesn’t prove to be the case for you. Just always be prepared for anything. I wish you the best.