too much

So this is just a stupid rant so read or not. ..
Im sitting on a crowded bus with class dust and tiny fragments of glass from work stuck to my sweaty skin cos the air con is not working on this bus. Some guy has tried to jam himself onto my seat when its fucking abvious im having trouble folding my 6’4″ body into a seat made for a person who is 5′. I keep sweating and thatmmakes me more Iitchy.
I feel like everyone is staring at me. Anxiety thru the roof. 2 girls behind will not shut the fuck up!!
“Like totally talking bout their like important
Life and like how their boyfriends are so untidy at like home”. If we had relaxed gun laws in Australia they would be dead.
The two guys sitting in back speaking a different language are for sure talking bout me. Plus I can hear a radio going that is basically just static and quiet voices. Not sure if real but heard it earlier too.
Im on a bus cos I lost my drivers license a year ago for various speeding fines while driving escorts 12 hours a night as a part time job that endef up costing me money not making any. Another great decision scotty. Well done. Fuck it. Its times like this I really wanna jump off sonething super high. One last feeling of total freedom from this awful messed up self absorbed world. Im sick of it. I wanna get off the ride. Ive had enough thanks. Im not gonna do it just yet, but one day it will push me over the edge.