Title says all. I’m becoming an idiot… My minds always in a blur to the point of forgetting. I’ve forgotten words, memories and plenty of other things like how to communicate with others. When I try to act smart I always turn out dumb, my friends make sure of it. They make me feel as though I’m an embarrassment. A shame. Not to long ago I had a hard time understanding the tv show I was watching. It took me a whole 10 seconds to process what they had said as well as what was going on. I don’t know what’s going on with me. It’s never happened before. I don’t want to lose the memories of information I need to learn but it’s happening. Little by little I’m becoming what I feel is going to be brain dead, and my mom doesn’t even bother to take me to get it checked out. Not even when I have the painful headaches that follow up.
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I sometimes feel like that too. My episodic memory is seemingly not that great compared to other people’s. I would struggle to tell you what I did last week. I just read that that could be related to autism, and I think I might be on the spectrum. They also say depression takes a toll on memory and cognitive functioning in general, as far as I know.
So yeah, why not get checked by a doctor, good idea.
Apart from that, if people you call “friends” call you stupid, something is wrong. You are being too accomodating to those people. Even if you have trouble thinking, “stupid” is an insult. And you shouldn’t let your friends insult you. The next time someone says something like that to you, talk back. You have to defend yourself. If they don’t get it, ditch them. They are not your friends.
Remembering and thinking is a lot to do with recall, and that takes an effort: to pull those memories out of your brain. I think calling yourself “stupid” can be an excuse to not try. I don’t mean it isn’t really difficult, I just mean: don’t give up. You can probably do much more than you think.
Take care 🙂