Honestly, sadly, if I could tell my past self anything it would be: “you should commit suicide as soon as possible and save yourself and everyone else the struggle of your existence”, and worse so i would’ve told myself that at whatever age I understood complete English sentences, because I was litterally born with depression, since I was a child I’ve always had suicidal thoughts, just never told anyone. Sorry didn’t mean to be a downer, but truth is, I was never meant to be born in the first place, now I’m so weak I don’t even have the strength to kill myself
Basically everything I have ever done…. I would like to change everything, I have never done anything that wasn’t horrible. But I guess if I had to pick one it would probably be upsetting my mother so much that she kicked me out.
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Honestly, sadly, if I could tell my past self anything it would be: “you should commit suicide as soon as possible and save yourself and everyone else the struggle of your existence”, and worse so i would’ve told myself that at whatever age I understood complete English sentences, because I was litterally born with depression, since I was a child I’ve always had suicidal thoughts, just never told anyone. Sorry didn’t mean to be a downer, but truth is, I was never meant to be born in the first place, now I’m so weak I don’t even have the strength to kill myself
Are you weak thru starvation or weariness of life, ZombieGirl ?
I’ve been doing so much research on VSED just recently. It’s the only thing i’m drawing comfort from at all now.
ZombieGirl, thanks for your total honesty. You and me are mates, now.
I wouldn’t because I might think I’m changing something for the better when I’m actually making it worse. I might go with ZombieGirl’s idea, though.
Basically everything I have ever done…. I would like to change everything, I have never done anything that wasn’t horrible. But I guess if I had to pick one it would probably be upsetting my mother so much that she kicked me out.