I feel quite better today as im progressing in forming new healthy habits like having a cold shower everymorning, do Yoga, meditate and read books! Yet again i’m happy like a naive child and again i’m having hopes for a better life! Again! -_-
I’m still here LIFE. I prevented my self from my “since childhood” Suicide Calling. Again. Why do you have a such cruel manners to teach me your Things?
My vision of an Ideal daily routine looks like this:
. Wake up early : 05h00 or 04h30.
. Quick Work-out
. Yoga
. Cold shower/brush teeth
. Dress/fix face
. Mathematics (Physics, Philo, Socio… studying one at a time)
. Get Adam ready for school (Dress him, make him breakfast, Love him!)
. Take Adam to school
. Go to work
. Work: reading articles, journaling, review/plan goals in between.
. Back to home
. Undress
. Wash hands/feet
. Yoga
. Make Smoothies/Dinner
. Clean home/hands
. Watch TV/play with my son
. Take Adam to bed
. Clean face
. Read: Literature
. Meditate
. Sleep
I’m quite a gifted person but I’m suicidal too. ..Lack of Emotional intelligence?
2 comments
You sound like your a really together person. From what you have posted here > you sound very energetic, you have a lot of positive things going in your life. You seem really together about maintaining a healthy lifestyle. All the things you have listed on your ideal productive day are all positive ways to spend your time and energy. I dont think I could ever come up with a better list of things for you to spend time with. I wonder why you still feel down or suicidal.
You sound like you have a great life. What is it that is getting you down in life??
DO you think there is something missing? Or do you think you have some unresolved issues from your past??
Thank you so much for your time Phantom, Like i said this would like my ideal daily routine,I’m not there yet, I’ve formed the Cold shower, morning yoga and now forming the Wake up early habit, it’s been years that i’m trying to figure out what would be a perfect daily routine, tried so many plans and suffer a lot cuz i felt life meaningless if not spent on goods deeds and beautiful feelings. just this year i come out with this list and i kinda like it cuz seems energetic, spiritual and healthy. i have a lot of positivity beside my suicidal thoughts. but i feel like im needing that last piece of puzzle in order to fit in and set free all my productive energy and talents. …I’ve been through cruel things, sexually abused by my mother, beaten everyday literally by aunts till im went 11 years old, never seen my father. lived by my own since i was 16. divorced just 3 years ago lol, now nothing can make me really happy even if i have an amazing son, specialy when i remember all the suffering in the world, that’s really makes me too sad. I know that change should begin from myself first, but others feelings and suffering makes me sad all the time, cuz i’m suffering, i know how it feels. (Excuse my English, Im from morocco). Thank you again for reading me.