Life did. Im just tired of life. Im tired of failing, missing out, and starting over again. Im tired of the pain and confusion that is put into my decisions. Im tired of hurting… Myself amd others. I’ll never be happy…
Why a smile? Because i know now, that in the end, I will smile. When I kiss death’s eternal peace at the alter, i will be smiling for once and for good. I wont bring any more pain to myself and others.
So many people’s lives will be better off without me. I’ll finally do something good. Somethings helpful. I’ll off myself and get out the way. I’ll leave with my own little, silent bang
I can assure you, the pain that you will cause, to others, by killing yourself will far exceed the pain you think you caused to others through your actions. Killing yourself is never something “good” or “helpful”. Also, you can’t know that you’ll never be happy. It may be right around the corner, despite any past experience telling you otherwise.
Honestly, I don’t know where to start. I’m crying while writing this, because even though I don’t know you, you are important to me. This world is so sick and cruel and I hate how amazing people have to feel like this. I’m so mad and sad. Nobody ever deserves to feel this way no matter what. I know life is pushing you and throwing all of these things in your way, but I know that you’re strong enough to over come this. You have your entire life ahead of you. There’s a complete difference between bumps on the road and pot holes, and I know that this has to be a bump. A bump on the road, is something that you just run into, but you eventually get over it. And a pot hole, is something you’re stuck in. Not always, but sometimes you have the choice to get out. I know you may feel stuck. Or “in a pot hole” (sorry this is a weird analogy but still) but It’s not. It’s a bump, weather it’s been a long time, or not. You’ve came this far, and I know that you are strong enough to continue. I know you don’t want to be here, but suicide doesn’t make things better, it ruins all chances of things ever getting better. I know they will, someday. I hope what you’re going through ends, and makes you stronger than ever. I’ve suffered through so many things too, depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, self harm, and even eating disorders. I’ve had lots of trauma in my life too. I know that you can do this, I believe in you. You’re only 17, or 18 correct? You’re so young, so precious. You have your whole life ahead of you. I want you to know that suicide will cause so much pain to others around you, more than the pain that others are feeling around you right now; weather you realize it or not. I know that you’re hurting, but I promise. I promise you that it does get better, Because I am living proof. Proof that it can get better, proof that depression isn’t strong enough to win. I am not my depression, or any of that crap. I’m still in recovery from all the things I listed, but I’m trying my best to be strong. I just recently relapsed, I stopped eating again, I self harmed again, I had more anxiety attacks, but I’m so tired of feeling this way. I want to do something about it. It is getting better actually, not as fast as I wanted it to, but it is. I’ve been struggling with these things since 7th grade, and now I’m going into I’m sophomore year of high school. I’ve been dealing with this for about 3 and a half years. It has been taking a while, and it didn’t start getting better until the end of freshman year. It is getting better, but slowly. At least that’s better than nothing, but it is getting better, at least I hope so. But this isn’t about me, you’re the important one here; No matter how long it takes, what ever fight you have in you, use it. You can do this. You may not realize it now, but I know that you can do this, and that you can win this fight. If you’re still reading this, I want you to know that I care. I genuinely do, weather I know you or not. Try not to focus on the negative, even if it feels like that’s all there is, there’s always a positive side. You’ve come so far, and I’m so so proud of you. I appreciate you okay? You’re an inspireation, a survivor. There’s so much I want to say, but I don’t know how to put it in words. There is help, and If you can’t find it in other people, find it in yourself. Please please don’t kill yourself, because you’re important. You deserve happiness. You’re so young and you’ve got your whole life ahead of you. I know you probably won’t listen to this, I mean, I am but a 14 year old girl. Hm, what do I know, right? I know a lot more than people think, trust me. But please, don’t kill your self. I am here for you and I will try my best to help you through this in any way. You are loved, and you are needed. There are lots of ways to help. Talk to someone, speak up. If that’s not your thing that’s okay, there are other ways. Meditate, call or text trauma or suicide or depression, etc. hotlines. There are so many other ways too. The only thing stronger than fear, is hope. I hope you get through this, I know you can. Believe in yourself. Always love yourself first. I know it’s hard right now, but it won’t be that way forever. I feel like I want to say so much more, but I don’t know how to put into words the right way. I hope this made you feel at least a little bit better, I hope this helped at least a little, because a little bit is better than none. And please, don’t deny what I’m saying. I know you will, but please at least think about it. I’m upset at myself because I feel like this won’t help enough, but I want to help anyone as much as I possibly can. I just want to spread love and positivity, and I hope you’re alright, if you think about hurting yourself, please talk to someone. Anyone. I’m here for you as well. Stay strong. I’m sorry if this came off as weird or creepy, or annoying or offensive. I’m just very sensitive when it comes to these kinds of topics and am very passionate about making things better, and helping people, and things like this. I hope you have a good day or night, and I truly hope you’ll be genuinely happy very soon. Stay strong okay? I’m here for you?
Honestly, I don’t know where to start. I’m crying while writing this, because even though I don’t know you, you are important to me. This world is so sick and cruel and I hate how amazing people have to feel like this. I’m so mad and sad. Nobody ever deserves to feel this way no matter what. I know life is pushing you and throwing all of these things in your way, but I know that you’re strong enough to over come this. You have your entire life ahead of you. There’s a complete difference between bumps on the road and pot holes, and I know that this has to be a bump. A bump on the road, is something that you just run into, but you eventually get over it. And a pot hole, is something you’re stuck in. Not always, but sometimes you have the choice to get out. I know you may feel stuck. Or “in a pot hole” (sorry this is a weird analogy but still) but It’s not. It’s a bump, weather it’s been a long time, or not. You’ve came this far, and I know that you are strong enough to continue. I know you don’t want to be here, but suicide doesn’t make things better, it ruins all chances of things ever getting better. I know they will, someday. I hope what you’re going through ends, and makes you stronger than ever. I’ve suffered through so many things too, depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, self harm, and even eating disorders. I’ve had lots of trauma in my life too. I know that you can do this, I believe in you. You’re only 17, or 18 correct? You’re so young, so precious. You have your whole life ahead of you. I want you to know that suicide will cause so much pain to others around you, more than the pain that others are feeling around you right now; weather you realize it or not. I know that you’re hurting, but I promise. I promise you that it does get better, Because I am living proof. Proof that it can get better, proof that depression isn’t strong enough to win. I am not my depression, or any of that crap. I’m still in recovery from all the things I listed, but I’m trying my best to be strong. I just recently relapsed, I stopped eating again, I self harmed again, I had more anxiety attacks, but I’m so tired of feeling this way. I want to do something about it. It is getting better actually, not as fast as I wanted it to, but it is. I’ve been struggling with these things since 7th grade, and now I’m going into I’m sophomore year of high school. I’ve been dealing with this for about 3 and a half years. It has been taking a while, and it didn’t start getting better until the end of freshman year. It is getting better, but slowly. At least that’s better than nothing, but it is getting better, at least I hope so. But this isn’t about me, you’re the important one here; No matter how long it takes, what ever fight you have in you, use it. You can do this. You may not realize it now, but I know that you can do this, and that you can win this fight. If you’re still reading this, I want you to know that I care. I genuinely do, weather I know you or not. Try not to focus on the negative, even if it feels like that’s all there is, there’s always a positive side. You’ve come so far, and I’m so so proud of you. I appreciate you okay? You’re an inspireation, a survivor. There’s so much I want to say, but I don’t know how to put it in words. There is help, and If you can’t find it in other people, find it in yourself. Please please don’t kill yourself, because you’re important. You deserve happiness. You’re so young and you’ve got your whole life ahead of you. I know you probably won’t listen to this, I mean, I am but a 14 year old girl. Hm, what do I know, right? I know a lot more than people think, trust me. But please, don’t kill your self. I am here for you and I will try my best to help you through this in any way. You are loved, and you are needed. There are lots of ways to help. Talk to someone, speak up. If that’s not your thing that’s okay, there are other ways. Meditate, call or text trauma or suicide or depression, etc. hotlines. There are so many other ways too. The only thing stronger than fear, is hope. I hope you get through this, I know you can. Believe in yourself. Always love yourself first. I know it’s hard right now, but it won’t be that way forever. I feel like I want to say so much more, but I don’t know how to put into words the right way. I hope this made you feel at least a little bit better, I hope this helped at least a little, because a little bit is better than none. And please, don’t deny what I’m saying. I know you will, but please at least think about it. I’m upset at myself because I feel like this won’t help enough, but I want to help anyone as much as I possibly can. I just want to spread love and positivity, and I hope you’re alright, if you think about hurting yourself, please talk to someone. Anyone. I’m here for you as well. Stay strong. I’m sorry if this came off as weird or creepy, or annoying or offensive. I’m just very sensitive when it comes to these kinds of topics and am very passionate about making things better, and helping people, and things like this. I hope you have a good day or night, and I truly hope you’ll be genuinely happy very soon. Stay strong okay? I’m here for you?
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Did any event in particular push you over the edge?
Life did. Im just tired of life. Im tired of failing, missing out, and starting over again. Im tired of the pain and confusion that is put into my decisions. Im tired of hurting… Myself amd others. I’ll never be happy…
And why with the smile (if you don’t mind elaborating)?
Why a smile? Because i know now, that in the end, I will smile. When I kiss death’s eternal peace at the alter, i will be smiling for once and for good. I wont bring any more pain to myself and others.
So many people’s lives will be better off without me. I’ll finally do something good. Somethings helpful. I’ll off myself and get out the way. I’ll leave with my own little, silent bang
I can assure you, the pain that you will cause, to others, by killing yourself will far exceed the pain you think you caused to others through your actions. Killing yourself is never something “good” or “helpful”. Also, you can’t know that you’ll never be happy. It may be right around the corner, despite any past experience telling you otherwise.
Honestly, I don’t know where to start. I’m crying while writing this, because even though I don’t know you, you are important to me. This world is so sick and cruel and I hate how amazing people have to feel like this. I’m so mad and sad. Nobody ever deserves to feel this way no matter what. I know life is pushing you and throwing all of these things in your way, but I know that you’re strong enough to over come this. You have your entire life ahead of you. There’s a complete difference between bumps on the road and pot holes, and I know that this has to be a bump. A bump on the road, is something that you just run into, but you eventually get over it. And a pot hole, is something you’re stuck in. Not always, but sometimes you have the choice to get out. I know you may feel stuck. Or “in a pot hole” (sorry this is a weird analogy but still) but It’s not. It’s a bump, weather it’s been a long time, or not. You’ve came this far, and I know that you are strong enough to continue. I know you don’t want to be here, but suicide doesn’t make things better, it ruins all chances of things ever getting better. I know they will, someday. I hope what you’re going through ends, and makes you stronger than ever. I’ve suffered through so many things too, depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, self harm, and even eating disorders. I’ve had lots of trauma in my life too. I know that you can do this, I believe in you. You’re only 17, or 18 correct? You’re so young, so precious. You have your whole life ahead of you. I want you to know that suicide will cause so much pain to others around you, more than the pain that others are feeling around you right now; weather you realize it or not. I know that you’re hurting, but I promise. I promise you that it does get better, Because I am living proof. Proof that it can get better, proof that depression isn’t strong enough to win. I am not my depression, or any of that crap. I’m still in recovery from all the things I listed, but I’m trying my best to be strong. I just recently relapsed, I stopped eating again, I self harmed again, I had more anxiety attacks, but I’m so tired of feeling this way. I want to do something about it. It is getting better actually, not as fast as I wanted it to, but it is. I’ve been struggling with these things since 7th grade, and now I’m going into I’m sophomore year of high school. I’ve been dealing with this for about 3 and a half years. It has been taking a while, and it didn’t start getting better until the end of freshman year. It is getting better, but slowly. At least that’s better than nothing, but it is getting better, at least I hope so. But this isn’t about me, you’re the important one here; No matter how long it takes, what ever fight you have in you, use it. You can do this. You may not realize it now, but I know that you can do this, and that you can win this fight. If you’re still reading this, I want you to know that I care. I genuinely do, weather I know you or not. Try not to focus on the negative, even if it feels like that’s all there is, there’s always a positive side. You’ve come so far, and I’m so so proud of you. I appreciate you okay? You’re an inspireation, a survivor. There’s so much I want to say, but I don’t know how to put it in words. There is help, and If you can’t find it in other people, find it in yourself. Please please don’t kill yourself, because you’re important. You deserve happiness. You’re so young and you’ve got your whole life ahead of you. I know you probably won’t listen to this, I mean, I am but a 14 year old girl. Hm, what do I know, right? I know a lot more than people think, trust me. But please, don’t kill your self. I am here for you and I will try my best to help you through this in any way. You are loved, and you are needed. There are lots of ways to help. Talk to someone, speak up. If that’s not your thing that’s okay, there are other ways. Meditate, call or text trauma or suicide or depression, etc. hotlines. There are so many other ways too. The only thing stronger than fear, is hope. I hope you get through this, I know you can. Believe in yourself. Always love yourself first. I know it’s hard right now, but it won’t be that way forever. I feel like I want to say so much more, but I don’t know how to put into words the right way. I hope this made you feel at least a little bit better, I hope this helped at least a little, because a little bit is better than none. And please, don’t deny what I’m saying. I know you will, but please at least think about it. I’m upset at myself because I feel like this won’t help enough, but I want to help anyone as much as I possibly can. I just want to spread love and positivity, and I hope you’re alright, if you think about hurting yourself, please talk to someone. Anyone. I’m here for you as well. Stay strong. I’m sorry if this came off as weird or creepy, or annoying or offensive. I’m just very sensitive when it comes to these kinds of topics and am very passionate about making things better, and helping people, and things like this. I hope you have a good day or night, and I truly hope you’ll be genuinely happy very soon. Stay strong okay? I’m here for you?
Honestly, I don’t know where to start. I’m crying while writing this, because even though I don’t know you, you are important to me. This world is so sick and cruel and I hate how amazing people have to feel like this. I’m so mad and sad. Nobody ever deserves to feel this way no matter what. I know life is pushing you and throwing all of these things in your way, but I know that you’re strong enough to over come this. You have your entire life ahead of you. There’s a complete difference between bumps on the road and pot holes, and I know that this has to be a bump. A bump on the road, is something that you just run into, but you eventually get over it. And a pot hole, is something you’re stuck in. Not always, but sometimes you have the choice to get out. I know you may feel stuck. Or “in a pot hole” (sorry this is a weird analogy but still) but It’s not. It’s a bump, weather it’s been a long time, or not. You’ve came this far, and I know that you are strong enough to continue. I know you don’t want to be here, but suicide doesn’t make things better, it ruins all chances of things ever getting better. I know they will, someday. I hope what you’re going through ends, and makes you stronger than ever. I’ve suffered through so many things too, depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, self harm, and even eating disorders. I’ve had lots of trauma in my life too. I know that you can do this, I believe in you. You’re only 17, or 18 correct? You’re so young, so precious. You have your whole life ahead of you. I want you to know that suicide will cause so much pain to others around you, more than the pain that others are feeling around you right now; weather you realize it or not. I know that you’re hurting, but I promise. I promise you that it does get better, Because I am living proof. Proof that it can get better, proof that depression isn’t strong enough to win. I am not my depression, or any of that crap. I’m still in recovery from all the things I listed, but I’m trying my best to be strong. I just recently relapsed, I stopped eating again, I self harmed again, I had more anxiety attacks, but I’m so tired of feeling this way. I want to do something about it. It is getting better actually, not as fast as I wanted it to, but it is. I’ve been struggling with these things since 7th grade, and now I’m going into I’m sophomore year of high school. I’ve been dealing with this for about 3 and a half years. It has been taking a while, and it didn’t start getting better until the end of freshman year. It is getting better, but slowly. At least that’s better than nothing, but it is getting better, at least I hope so. But this isn’t about me, you’re the important one here; No matter how long it takes, what ever fight you have in you, use it. You can do this. You may not realize it now, but I know that you can do this, and that you can win this fight. If you’re still reading this, I want you to know that I care. I genuinely do, weather I know you or not. Try not to focus on the negative, even if it feels like that’s all there is, there’s always a positive side. You’ve come so far, and I’m so so proud of you. I appreciate you okay? You’re an inspireation, a survivor. There’s so much I want to say, but I don’t know how to put it in words. There is help, and If you can’t find it in other people, find it in yourself. Please please don’t kill yourself, because you’re important. You deserve happiness. You’re so young and you’ve got your whole life ahead of you. I know you probably won’t listen to this, I mean, I am but a 14 year old girl. Hm, what do I know, right? I know a lot more than people think, trust me. But please, don’t kill your self. I am here for you and I will try my best to help you through this in any way. You are loved, and you are needed. There are lots of ways to help. Talk to someone, speak up. If that’s not your thing that’s okay, there are other ways. Meditate, call or text trauma or suicide or depression, etc. hotlines. There are so many other ways too. The only thing stronger than fear, is hope. I hope you get through this, I know you can. Believe in yourself. Always love yourself first. I know it’s hard right now, but it won’t be that way forever. I feel like I want to say so much more, but I don’t know how to put into words the right way. I hope this made you feel at least a little bit better, I hope this helped at least a little, because a little bit is better than none. And please, don’t deny what I’m saying. I know you will, but please at least think about it. I’m upset at myself because I feel like this won’t help enough, but I want to help anyone as much as I possibly can. I just want to spread love and positivity, and I hope you’re alright, if you think about hurting yourself, please talk to someone. Anyone. I’m here for you as well. Stay strong. I’m sorry if this came off as weird or creepy, or annoying or offensive. I’m just very sensitive when it comes to these kinds of topics and am very passionate about making things better, and helping people, and things like this. I hope you have a good day or night, and I truly hope you’ll be genuinely happy very soon. Stay strong okay? I’m here for you?