I was dating a awesome girl, at first she saved me from my depression. After around a year of us fighting, it really got bad. We were hittong each other. My depression came back, she said it was over. I was so sad that i thought about ways to kill myself everyday. I scratched my arms and left marks. I tried killing myself with a noose but i chickened out cause i thought that she would love me again. Though now i am looking up to see if sleeping pills will kill me, they are from 2009 and yeah. I want to live, but there isnt really anything to live for….
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sorry very stupid question, you are a girl dating a girl?
Ya..
HUM? I have nothing against doing what ever or with whom, and i know relationships go south, what ever sex, but i think it’s especially hard for the same sex, i’ve never seen a same sex that ended good and that leads to being very depressed. just a thought?
Sorry to hear-but if your fights got physical then you’re probably better off apart. I’d suggest finding someone new and perhaps seeing a therapist about dealing with your depression. Some people go on medication and they help. Others turn to exercise/healthy lifestyle and that works for them, so you never know.
Relationships can sometimes be emotionally tumultuous, you have your highs and lows…so it’s good to find a partner who could be more stable and patient.
I want you to know that you are loved and needed, and wanted amd there’s is so so much to live for, even if you don’t realize it. You have your entire life ahead of you, I know you can win this fight. You can get through whatever you’re going through, I believe in you. Don’t let that relationship beat you up. Don’t blame yourself for it going wrong, maybe you two weren’t meant for each other. But that’s okay! It might feel like the end of the world but it’ll get better. You have your whole life ahead of you, and you’ll come across so many different amazing places and smells and people and clothes and tastes and animals and those awe moments and so many experiences that make you go “wow”. Don’t miss out on those wonderful moments, especially the ones you get to spend with people you love or who love you the most. And there’s so many other people out there, you’ll find love, and I hope it’s amazing for you. I wish you the best, always. I know you may not feel loved or wanted or needed but you are. I know so, and I know you can get through this. I’m here for you, stay strong.
Meet new people, make new friends, and before long you’ll be with someone else you feel is worth committing suicide for. Also, don’t depend one anyone for happiness. Because then you’re only setting yourself up for failure.
Edit: “Also, don’t depend *on* anyone for happiness.”