We must hurt. My end is coming, i can taste it. i completely withdraw from people now but in a different way, its almost like im not afraid of their judgement anymore because im hurting from my scars and im not thinking anything but how this moment is fading away..
I know im wrong. i know im a failure without help from others. but i refuse help from people who are like me. I hate myself deeply, and avoid all interactions. People try to talk to me and often ask me why im so down and have my hoodie on, my reply is always…i dont know.. because i prefer to be hidden, to be invisible, than to be known.
Secondly, iv been thinking what ill miss when i die, and its mostly you guys my friends here cordless, sunflower, potatoe, etc… I wish i made more friends in my life but i guess i should have thought about that before i spent my hours away from people..you reap what you sow. im thinking of my blood all the time.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4vyi6CSPHxA
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Don’t worry you’re not a failure. We still love you, I’m sure many people love you too…. If you want you can always choose to stop pushing people away, I know it’s a bit hard not to do but it’s always still an option…. There’s also nothing wrong with accepting help…. Also “I don’t know” is a perfectly legitimate answer to that question, it very well could actually be the correct answer…. I’m not sure if it is or not in your case, but either way it’s not a bad answer.
interesting response. i honestly didnt even know people out there cared for each other that much…much love <3
Lots of people are actually surprisingly caring, they generally just don’t show it to everybody.
I see….