I haven’t been eating much lately.
I haven’t been sleeping much lately.
But I go out a lot.
Walk in circles.
Looking for something.
Something isn’t here, there, anywhere.
I am looking. I am looking. I am looking.
What?
What are you looking for???
A place where I am.
I don’t feel like I am alive anymore. I don’t feel me.
My heart is burning. No one sees the hole. But is there! Touch it! Touch it!
Is it why everything is lost?
Is it why I am not living anymore?
What is going on?
Am I dead?
Dead.
Help me.
Please.
2 comments
Ditto
bunnyeyes, that’s melancholic genius oozing from you here. It perfectly describes the weight we who suffer from this unbearable illness, carry.
It sums up beautifully the feeling of utter, abject despair and hopelessness. Without purpose or any meaningful direction.