People throughout my life have been making me feel sorry for them when I decided to put my foot down. Like with my friend who I got into a heated fight with. He always tells me about how upset he felt in the fight but never cared about how I felt about it. Hurt, depressed, betrayed, cheated on, thrown away, used, the list goes on and on.. It always seems like he’s trying to make me feel sorry for him even though he was the main cause of it. Same said with my dad. I remember this one time I didn’t want to go on vacation with the family so I wrote him a note telling him how I felt and he got very upset with me. Made it so it felt like it was my fault. I ended up having to go and not having a good time. I’m sick of it. I know it may sound selfish when I say why can’t they feel sorry for me? I’m the one who has to put up with it and deal with it. When I’m crying or hurt no one ever try’s to care for me. So.. Why should I sympathize them for the misery they have caused me for so many years? Cause.. I’ve almost about had it with everyone..
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Some people just don’t understand. It is worse for you because you have to be pushing things down and you have to deal with them on your own. So you feel this resentment for all of these people who are in your life that don’t take notice, who don’t give you a break.
It seems to me that they are unintentionally(hopefully) selfish in their arguments with you. Becoming defensive from the start of every issue taking whatever you are saying as a personal issue rather than hearing what you have to say. Just take all of that in stride because honestly a lot of people are that way. You need to find an outlet for all of your pent up emotions and thoughts and maybe posting here is part of that.
And truthfully it is okay to be selfish sometimes. When the people in your life don’t understand where you are coming from they can make things worse for you by adding to your pain like you have described. You need to know what you can take and you need to be able to stand up for yourself every once in a while.