I can’t live like this for much longer. I can’t. It’s so unfair knowing that the things I want the most in life cannot be achieved because of how insignificant I am. It doesn’t feel good when the thought keeps coming back up. I guess I was born with no purpose. If I was then I probably won’t achieve it. I don’t even know what I’m doing anymore. I’m drifting through life. Just waiting for things to get better even though it seems they never do. Sometimes I get the feeling that the problems I have now are nothing compared to the horrible things that could happen in the future. I’m so jealous of other people’s lives. They have everything figured out. They have a sense of direction and they know what they’re doing. Fate seems to favor those people. Then there’s me, the one who won’t amount to anything. I guess I’m a hopeless case. I can’t keep holding on if there’s nothing to look forward to. I mean, there are things that I look forward to, but I’ll probably just end up messing up everything. Maybe there’s really no point anymore…
I’m sorry… I’m not your hero anymore.
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Emptiness is something larger then itself. Its something mankind cant control- it burrows in all of us, many deeper than others. and it becomes a monster inside of yourself, soon enough you fall into the well… forced to take drastic measures to get back out. But its always there- its a cycle. The same thing happens over and over and it wears you out and all you’re doing is getting broken down and exposed. There is no end. But you need to find something to live for. If something isnt making you happy- get rid of it. Keep everything that makes a sound. and most importantly- dont lose yourself. Dont be afraid.
Don’t be jealous. People seem to have everything figured out but in reality, they don’t.
Think about it, how much control do we really have?
When fate favors you, it’s pure luck