I’ve felt like a failure my entire life and I still do. I can’t do anything right. I fail at academics. I’m socially inept. I have no awe-inspiring talents. There’s nothing unique about me. I could blame my dyslexia, ADHD, or even my depression. But, let’s be honest, they’re just excuses. I’m just a pathetic waste of human life. Nobody has ever liked me and nobody ever will. Hell, I don’t even like myself. I wish I would’ve died at birth. But contemporary medicine just has to be competent enough to save premature infants. People like me just don’t belong. Sorry for all the negativity. I have nobody else to speak to and I needed to vent.
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There’s many people that don’t possess any “awe-inspiring” talents, that’s quite a lofty goal. However, there are many people that discover talents until later in life. It’s a complex process to uncover them. It definitely does not mean that you have no talents, because you currently feel that you don’t possess any. Also, I highly doubt no one has ever liked you. O and there’s no need to apologize for negativity, as you said it yourself, you needed to vent, and this place is perfect for it.
Thanks. I thought people would say my issues are stupid like usual.
Welcome to SP! It’s a good place to rant and vent.
You shouldn’t apologize for negativity. It’s pretty common with depression. Most people are average. They live average boring lives. There are 7 billion humans on this planet, there isn’t anything truly unique about any of them. People with exceptional skills or talents are very rare. The problem is it’s those exceptional people that we always hear about and see on tv. So we get a distorted perception of reality. Those are the people we want to emulate, so we feel like failures if we don’t measure up to that ideal.
Negativity can also warp out perceptions. Give us a false view of reality. Like the delusional belief that no one has ever liked you or that you are unlikable. That is just not realistic, and is more of a projection of your own feelings for yourself. Since you don’t like yourself you don’t believe anyone else ever could or would either.
I guess I can see where you’re coming from. It’s just hard not being negative when you was a child and teenager and all anybody has done was ditch you and say ill things behind your back. Now that I’m eighteen I find myself questioning a lot of things. Like if my goal to be a psychologist is realistic or not. I don’t think I’m intelligent enough. My peers and teachers has made that evident. Above that I even want to make a decent contribution to the realm of psychology; like Carl Jung’s Introvert and Extravert theory. But it just seems silly now.
I think psychology is a good goal. In fact I would assume most psychologists become interested in psychology mainly because they have their own issues they want to understand. I guess beyond that is also the desire to help others. With the way mental illness is spreading the world needs all the psychologists it can get.
A lot of people do poorly in school not so much because they lack intelligence but because they just dont care about the subjects they are forced to learn. You don’t have to be that smart to get a college degree, you just have to put in the time and effort. Hard work and determination will get you pretty far.
You might want to get your depression under control before tackling college though. Depression can effect memory and definitely has an effect on your energy and focus. Also get some adderall or something similar for that ADHD.
I wouldn’t worry so much about making some revolutionary discovery. Just take things one step at a time.
Yeah, that’s about true. I got into psychology around the time I was diagnosed with ADHD and depression. But I guess you’re right. Maybe I am rushing and overthinking things. Thanks for the support.
I have a talent, but, I still want to get out of life, I have friends, good parents and brothers, but, I don’t tell anything because I will not hurt them before the right moment. They WILL grief , but not while I’m still here
I am sorry to hear that you are suffering, but you are lucky to have good influences around you… Maybe you should reach out to them..?