Tell me…
Am I useful to this world?
I mean, from what I see, i’m useless.
So I’m here to rant about myself.
I’m unaccepted, i was never able to be super comfortable in a group of friends.
I’m troublesome, i’ve always caused my parents a lot of trouble. It’s to the point where i blame myself about my father’s heart attack about one and a half year from now.
I’m an accident, my parents never planned me out. i almost killed my mother when i was born. i’ve been called ‘adopted’ a million of times throughout my short time of living.
I’m mentally suicidal, if that made any sense at all, almost everything in my mind is negative. i might even be an overthinker.
I’m disgusted by almost everything, i can’t even touch my bathroom sink without feeling disgust.
I’m just… useless. Everything i do has its bad side. i’ve disappointed my parents a lot about my grades. I’ve been left out by friends because i seem like the type to not get along with people.
That’s all for today. i’ve got plenty more that i just can’t bring up for now.
2 comments
The usefulness to society does not need to be immediately obvious. Every member will have his/her use at some point during a lifetime. Don’t be sad about your grades. After you finish your high school nobody will care about any of your grades. I do believe it is more important to work towards something you like and want to do.
Try to understand that your parents are angry about grades because that’s they were taught society wants. Try to follow your own goals. When you’ll succeed they will see the error in their judgement.
I don’t think there is anything wrong with not feeling comfortable in a group of people because of mob mentality and peanut gallery crap. I myself prefer going out with people in one on one because it allows me to really focus my attention on them and get to know what their like without social pressures in the mix. But you are being really hard on yourself. It seems a common theme here for folks.