My parents make me depressed, that’s why I stay in my room because every time I have a conversation with them, hang out with them, or when they talk to me I want to kill myself afterwards. They don’t do anything mean to me or anything, we don’t even argue much, I can’t ague with them, maybe it because i’m scared of them, or I know I just owe them to much but I can’t argue with them. I guess I feel kinda like I have been locked in a cage around them, I don’t feel comfortable at all and I can’t be myself. I know they love me, or so they say, but I honestly hate being around them, I do talk to them, but it’s horrible, I am weird to them, or at least I would be if they knew who I really was, they don’t accept or judge a lot of people who are’t “normal” if you know what I mean, and I hate it, not even if that thing they are not accepting doesn’t apply to me it makes me angry and sad.
Another thing that makes me sad is probably that they seem to look down on me, I know i’m much younger, I mean i’m only 16 and I still have lot’s of things to learn but so do they. They might never agree with me weather it’s because i’m a teenager or because i’m considered a “weird” person to them who they look down upon, I hate it, most of the time age doesn’t apply and I don’t think it’s a reason to make you better than someone.
Anyways this is just kind of a rant, but my parents do make me depressed and I thought I would come on here instead of self harming this time. I don’t know if what I have said has really explained how I have felt but I don’t really know what else to do besides tell you guys about it.
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I can relate to this, I also have to be someone else around my parents and family…. It is annoying. And good job not self harming tonight ^_^
Thank you, It’s nice to hear that someone else can relate to this 🙂