I’ve been struggling with this condition I’ve had for years now and I think the idea of accepting it is interesting. It atleast brings me some comfort to know that I know how my life will likely end, and why it will end. Maybe this is just me giving up, and I definitely don’t feel comfortable with how I feel. But it’s gotten better as I’ve come to grips with the fact that I will probably be dealing with this the whole rest of my life (however long or short that may be)
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SwishAL, i think you need to seriously acknowledge ( I read your other posts ) WHY you have been attracting/accepting the wrong kind of partners. I feel this could hold the key to opening up the right door within your mind.
About four years ago i went on a journey of self discovery. I realized why i too kept allowing toxic type characters into my life….why none were ever healthy minded and when they were i subconsciously pushed them away from me.
It was because i had been programmed to do so early in life. I grew up around to highly dysfunctional, toxic ‘parents; so it was pretty much all i knew, all i was used to seeing and being around.
I have thought about why I attract negative people. I definitely don’t look for them, and when I realize they’re a negative influence I do push them away. However the illnesses I have aren’t caused by the relationships I’ve been in. I’ve had dark thoughts for years before I even started dating and being affectionate towards others. The betrayal just seems to trigger (I guess thats the right word to use) it.
SwishAL, can you check ‘Pending’ I left you a comment which has- ‘Your comment is awaiting moderation’ on it. That sometimes happens, i think its due to me putting up three posts recently in quick succession
Which condition are you talking about?
If it’s mental… don’t think that you’ll be dealing with it forever as I have my own fair share of problems like I used to have social anxiety, still have problems with insomnia and ocd. Yet I am getting better in all of them.
The secret is you can’t run away from your problems and need to find out the underlying cause and try to better that. Or just accepting yourself and not caring as much or something…
DOn’t know exactly what condition your talking about though.
Moderate Deperssion, BPD, Social Anxiety. The acceptance definitely helps my anxiety, I still deal with it but I don’t get as stressed out about things as I used to because of this acceptance I’ve been experiementing.
I understand. It took me year to finally accept it and deal with it and move on in life