It’s hard to love myself when I know myself.
People keep on telling me to just love myself. Well, if you were me you would definitely hate me too.
Why can I not love myself? Why do I need to create a mirror persona to tell me that they love me so I won’t kill myself?
Because honey, I’m filthy. Like hella. I need to create this person who’s not tainted to remain clean.
I’m filthy.
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Maybe I should get a cat.
It is kinda hard liking yourself when you know yourself. Looking at yourself in the mirror and telling yourself to love that knowing about yourself is a task I know. I got a cat.
Yeah.
What breed do you have? I’m browsing the internet
I ain’t fond of myself either. That’s fine, so long as I don’t let it get in the way of everything else. How I feel about me is entirely irrelevant to what I need to do, though it’s probably easier to have a good self-image. i’ve mostly come to accept I’ll carry some shit with me til i die, it’s what it is.
That being said.. Forgiving yourself for shortcomings and being human has some merit. everyone has a dark side, does things they aren’t proud of and hurts people. Try not to focus solely on any one aspect in that mirror, rather all the parts that compose the whole, including the good (and I know that side exists too, so..) my problem is even doing that, the bad has more power over me and keeps kicking my ass..
If you do want a cat, maybe think about going to a shelter or some place. Make sure beforehand you’re entirely capable of critter care, because there is a bit of effort in being a responsible caretaker, being mindful of their needs.