my name is Ally, and im 17. two years ago, my older brother shot- killed himself. he was my very best friend in this world, and the only one i could really talk to. tmrw is important, because its the day i will be the same exact age he was when he died.
lately, ive been thinking of joining him, and sometimes it almost feels like he is calling me. trouble is, it wud kill my mom and dad. im all they have left. but its just too hard to go on. i am so alone. nobody gets it- gets me. and most of my friends vanished after he died. i still dont know why.
i guess im looking for help, some advice, or maybe just someone to chat with about it all.
i dont want to do therapy again- tried that for over a year, and meds too. they only made me feel worse.
i love to read, so if anyone knows any good books for teens about suicide maybe? a family member reccomended one called “the three trees” , but i couldnt find it at the bookstores near me, and i cant order online, because i dont have a credit card. Does anyone know this book, or anything else i cud try?
help?
thanks, -ally.
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The Synchronicity key by David Wilcock. Also The source field investigations by the same author. And Tony Robbins is all over youtube and the internet. He is a great motivational Creature. Can I ask from where your and your brother’s depression stems?
i dont know where my brothers came from. he was just sad all the time. kept saying things were pointless, meaningless, cause we all die any way?
me…i guess most of my depression comes from his death, or just from loneliness?
Thanks for the book suggstions i wrote them down and i will look for them at bookstore tmrw.
Hello! I ‘m dany . 16 years old.
I ‘m dealing with the suicide of my friend . This month will be three years that she left me. But I keep thinking about it daily. When she died it was the first time I considered killing myself . So I understand.
We can talk if you want.
I love read too. But i don’t read many books about suicide because, well , you know . sorry :c
hi Dany,
please dont be offended, but are you a boy or girl? just curious, it doesnt really matter. we can talk sometime. so what do you read?
Don’t worry. I’m a girl.
Yes if you want we can talk sometime.
I like books about murder, investigate crimes… You know . But I read a little of everything .
You have a favorite writer?