I know I haven’t explained exactly what’s going on in detail yet but I will soon.. Honestly I just can’t find the energy to type everything I am so sad and tired every second I don’t wanna do anything..
I hate myself so much why does my family have to care I wish so bad they didn’t
I don’t wanna be here I don’t wanna fail myself or disappoint others anymore I don’t know what to do.. If she’s gone for good I’ve lost everything and i can’t handle it.. As of now I’m scared to end it myself and scared to die, but I don’t want to be alive at all.. I don’t want to have any feeling. I feel like there’s to much bad now and hardly any good at all. Like none.. I hate this so much why can’t it just end and me maybe not wake up or something.. I’ve even considered taking as many sleeping pills as I can but I’m nervous
i am so lost and so empty and I just want it to end why am I so scared.. I have no purpose, no drive, no reason to wake up I’m just a useless day to day zombie taking up air.. I don’t even eat or drink anything anymore I’m worthless. I hope i can figure out a way to end it soon
I HATE THIS AND I HATE MYSELF
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Hold onto that little good that’s left. Also, accept and appreciate your family’s concern, and care for you. You may feel like you’re not worth it, but clearly they see someone that’s worth caring for. O and it’s never too late to find, or renew, your purpose, and drive. It takes effort and time, but it’s possible.
Support or codependent annonymous group out there im sure in your state to hear others going thru your pain.i wish you love and please at the very least please try therapist or psych pills give it another fight. You sound like a good person. We need more of you
I feel exactly the same. Zombie girl with no worth, no reason for living, no anything left. I resent my family caring too. It’s weird how similar our feelings sound. I suck at giving encouragement, but know that someone out here knows where you’re coming from at least. You’re not alone!
It’s the worst feeling ever I hate it
I don’t wanna be here I don’t wanna fail myself or disappoint others anymore I don’t know what to do..
I can relate to this on a personal level as well.. It’s hard but we will always make mistakes, it’s learning from them and moving forward that helps us to cope with feelings like that.
Scared to die but don’t want to live? I’ve also felt like this many times before.. I’m sorry you feel like this too..
You are definitely not alone.
I’m just so torn and confused and empty